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Ego. The Healing Pt l. Amera Ziganii Rao
There are two levels of existence in life. One is called ego and one is called soul. One is 'normal' and automatic and the other the most elusive but attainable thing on earth. Self knowledge through gruelling and deeply satisfying but hair raising humility, self criticism (therapy, clearing the past, re-educating oneself) and ultimately self love. Always know what level of existence stands before you. In the mirror and in other people too. Then you are winning.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
So what I would say is that ego is four things;
1. Dehumanising the person you love the most. Like a mad, insane, uncontrollable force, the ego makes us dehumanise out of chronic need, fear and fear of abandonment. We are unable to be objective, to be friends with the person we love the most, to be their friend, or to treat that human being with love, even though we love them the most. We treat strangers better than we treat those we love the most. We do it and then we are appalled at ourselves and can yet, just not change the way we behave, whatever we do.
2. The Warlord to Warrior transformation. In ego, we cannot believe that we are allowed to 'kill'. We see love or spirituality as only peace. As being ‘good’. And that we will be punished if we are ‘bad’. We do not believe that it is holy or morally correct to fight or 'kill' or stand up for ourselves with any force, and yet we have this latent violent rage which means we do just that but we don’t know how to control it. We don't understand why it could possibly be our job to fight another person and we would like to think we are above such things and we are shocked instead at the amount of people who are so cruel and rude and horrible and we just try to avoid them instead and find ourselves, unconsciously of course, getting more and more afraid of life and people and disliking them more and more. Our latent rage frightens us even more so we just have to spend all our energy suppressing it and believe we are really 'bad' people for even feeling it. And yet we remain so angry that so much non peace exists, everywhere we go and everywhere we look.
3. In ego, we do not believe God loves us (not the way I talk about it, if you've seen my other writings. I am talking as a forced master, ie Maximus, in Ridley Scott's 'Gladiator' and not as ego. I am talking from superego and that is another story). In ego, we just believe that somehow we are outside the grace of God and that good things happen to other people and not to us. We are especially bad. We try to do everything alone, without spirit, because we don’t believe spirit loves us. We are also latently furious at existence, because Earth is so hard. We are actually furious at God's Universe and frankly, would rather do it alone. But we feel afraid as we do it alone, because we actually believe God is out to get us and that we have no control over anything and we don't understand why, so we are in a perpetual state of terror and hatred and resentment and we just try to make the best of it, but it is really tiring and makes us really afraid.
4. In ego, we separate illusion from love. We would rather fantasise about romantic love, than experience it. We are chronic idealists (I used to hate that word so much) in ego, and that is actually to hide the fact that we are still terrified of risking love, risking our hearts, so we would rather, despite all our apparent wishes, dream our life away, rather than live a life of love. We live inside our imagination, rather than live our imagination. This, like all ego thoughts and emotions is not a conscious decision, but it ends up dictating everything, despite our best attempts. In men, it is called the 'Whore and Madonna' syndrome, but it is gender generic and always what we do in ego. The more wounded we are in ego, the more wounded our ego, the less we will be brave enough to love, so the more we will separate reality and fantasy. In some, it may be the separation of desire and family style love and in others it comes out differently. It is all the same thing. Just not having the courage to risk our hearts. In ego we wouldn't.
Ego is the lower mind, that we received when we first became conscious, ie at the age of 8 or 9. It is thought and it is lower thought, to self protect us and what is fed beautifully by everyone around us. The other masters talk of the tribe mind, I talk about the tribe mind alot in my writings too. The other masters also talk about the influences from other people, but we also know, that it is a hijacking of the mind, that feels like a madness. It is fair enough to talk of it as if it is so sensible to talk to, but the truth is that emotionally it feels almost impossible to change it. Because it is. That is what this war is about. The war on the ego. The war on ourselves to become soul. Because, make no mistake, to those of us who are intensely emotional, it is a war and nothing less. I would have said everyone was this emotional, but maybe I am wrong.
The war is to shift the mortal husk and it is a miracle that you create. That any of us have to create. We have to create a miracle to rid ourselves of the ego mind and heart. Nothing less. And it takes emotionally facing yourself. Facing the pain, entering the pain, entering the vortex of the pain and crying it out and coming to terms with one’s deepest grief and then accepting it and then letting it go. That is what facing oneself means. Visceral, emotional agony. And then it goes. The most intense agony one can ever feel.
You’ve done it before. I am sure. We all do it bit by bit. But not enough. You have faced yourself and transformed every so often. And that is great, that is already becoming a master. Now it is about doing it for the last time. It is that process, on a huge level for the last time.
Yes, as you can see in me, in my other writings, superego also feels pain. It is true and the greatest disappointment in life. That once you have 'killed' yourself, the pain is still there. Masters still feel pain. But it is not the same pain. Superego’s pain is different. Soul is your greatest parent and once you let it in and let it guide you, yes, you may fight with it, like I do mine, but that is not what you need to think about. What you need to do is focus on those four things and understand and make that lower mind believe that that is ego. And useless. Ego is ‘need and greed make a weed’ as I have said before.
I intend to leave my ego and marry my soul. To be my soul’s child, to marry my soul, to value it as my greatest partner. I am not outside the grace of God. I am so loved by God and can therefore trust the Universe to parent me. Loving her/him, I actually have a second partner in soul and therefore, there are three of us and therefore I am safe. My soul centres me, not her/him. I am complete without her and complete with her. But my soul and her soul are always there too. So, depending on whether I believe we share the same soul or not, there are three or four of us in the partnership. There is a whole family and I feel safe. I am not alone. And never will be.
I want you to contemplate that sentence. Soul or ego, soul or ego. As Wayne Dyer say, you cannot be a host to God and a hostage to your ego at the same time.
That is the splintering. When I was in ego, what I remember realising that I was doing, was that I was regarding God or soul in the same way I regarded my own physical parents. So when I got scared, I projected my fear and memories of their crap parenting onto God and the Universe. For instance, when I felt that I couldn't be together with my man, for all the thousands of reasons we have had to go through, I used to rage at God and actually was projecting my ‘sex police’ parents onto God. That they hadn’t wanted me to have a true relationship and therefore, neither did God. That is ego.
Ego is also lack of forgiveness but we will deal with that next. For today, I want you to focus on that intention to marry your soul. And focus on that list of four things. They are all ego and ego is a lie. A self sabotaging lie that hijacked you physically at eight. That has taken you over and ruined your life. A mortal husk holds you hostage and it is black and crusty and hard. And you do not want it anymore. You want to be sane. And you want to be strong.
You’ve done it before. I am sure. We all do it bit by bit. But not enough. You have faced yourself and transformed every so often. And that is great, that is already becoming a master. Now it is about doing it for the last time. It is that process, on a huge level for the last time.
Yes, as you can see in me, in my other writings, superego also feels pain. It is true and the greatest disappointment in life. That once you have 'killed' yourself, the pain is still there. Masters still feel pain. But it is not the same pain. Superego’s pain is different. Soul is your greatest parent and once you let it in and let it guide you, yes, you may fight with it, like I do mine, but that is not what you need to think about. What you need to do is focus on those four things and understand and make that lower mind believe that that is ego. And useless. Ego is ‘need and greed make a weed’ as I have said before.
I intend to leave my ego and marry my soul. To be my soul’s child, to marry my soul, to value it as my greatest partner. I am not outside the grace of God. I am so loved by God and can therefore trust the Universe to parent me. Loving her/him, I actually have a second partner in soul and therefore, there are three of us and therefore I am safe. My soul centres me, not her/him. I am complete without her and complete with her. But my soul and her soul are always there too. So, depending on whether I believe we share the same soul or not, there are three or four of us in the partnership. There is a whole family and I feel safe. I am not alone. And never will be.
I want you to contemplate that sentence. Soul or ego, soul or ego. As Wayne Dyer say, you cannot be a host to God and a hostage to your ego at the same time.
That is the splintering. When I was in ego, what I remember realising that I was doing, was that I was regarding God or soul in the same way I regarded my own physical parents. So when I got scared, I projected my fear and memories of their crap parenting onto God and the Universe. For instance, when I felt that I couldn't be together with my man, for all the thousands of reasons we have had to go through, I used to rage at God and actually was projecting my ‘sex police’ parents onto God. That they hadn’t wanted me to have a true relationship and therefore, neither did God. That is ego.
Ego is also lack of forgiveness but we will deal with that next. For today, I want you to focus on that intention to marry your soul. And focus on that list of four things. They are all ego and ego is a lie. A self sabotaging lie that hijacked you physically at eight. That has taken you over and ruined your life. A mortal husk holds you hostage and it is black and crusty and hard. And you do not want it anymore. You want to be sane. And you want to be strong.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
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I am THE High Priestess Monarch of the ancient past and I forgive you for becoming enslaved and taken over by the machines of the alien reptile force that invaded and took over Earth 8000 years ago. They taught you to hate me and my kind and you believed them. They told you I and my kind were dictators and that you were slaves, when all we had done was love you, honour you as companions and above all, we had let you just live. We were the holy communers, the ones who gave birth to human beings, the leaders of society, the creators of society, the vehicles of Divinity on Earth and the channels of wisdom. The ones who looked after everything and the ones who built everything and ran everything, because we could. And because we loved it. We are and were the force of creation. And you loved us and you lived. But they told you that you ‘deserved’ power too and that we were the ones standing in your way. And you believed them. The oldest ‘divide and rule’ strategy of hate in history and it worked. They used it and you bought it, hook, line and sinker. You had to give up sex, love, magic and your own spiritual gifts and you burnt, destroyed and violated me for 8000 years. The world calls that male supremacy. And indeed, family supremacy, Matriarchal supremacy and supremacy of the material world and all who believe in it. Men and women like you. When all that you are are slaves to a reptile force to generate hate energy for them to live and thrive and vampire the human race. The puppets of a hate force, that chose to destroy women and men like me, for hate to grow, so they could live. You bought it and it worked. The greatest fraud in the history of the world. I am THE High Priestess Monarch of the ancient past and I forgive you for becoming enslaved and taken over by the machines of the alien reptile force that invaded and took over Earth 8000 years ago. They taught you to hate me and my kind and you believed them. They taught you that my mind was evil. My mind, my sex, my body and my ways of life. The humanity, the glory of sexuality and the glory of creation and creativity and the glory of Divinity in each and every one of us. Our souls. They taught you that human beings are separate from Divinity, that sex was wrong and that women who have minds of their own are uppity slaves. They vilified us but much much worse than that, they destroyed your relationship with all that is unseen, all that we honour and love. They taught you to hate what is really God. By teaching you to hate us, you hated all that is good in yourselves. They taught you to hate the light. They taught you to kill us. The daughters of The Universe. The High Priestesses of God. The Spiritual Mothers. The Sacred Whore High Priestess Avatars of The Universe. The Sacred Army of Love on Earth. The Shamans, the Mystics and the Communers. They called me Eve and blamed me for the downfall of the human race and created the awesome profanity that is religion. Of men, by men and from men. Of reptiles, by reptiles and from reptiles. Christianity, Islam and Judaism and every other philosophy around the world was poisoned. There are no female spiritual leaders left. It is all profanity. They chose you to represent them because they wanted to divide us and they did. They told you to hate me. And you believed them. Now I am back and I forgive you. I forgive you because I can. Because I came here to save your soul. And because I finally know who I am. I am THE High Priestess Monarch of the ancient past. I came here to return your soul to The Source. God, The Mother, The Universe. To return you to what is really God. Because I love you. And because She loves you and your kind, whatever you have done. Whatever you have done to me and whatever you have done to Her. And most of all, whatever you have done to yourself. We forgive you. This is your redemption. Your freedom and your ascension. We are here to save your soul.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2012
You bought the Sacred Whore like a piece of meat and you called that a wife. Your trophy wives. Your dancing girls. Your chattel and serving girls. Your piece of beauty. You bought us like you would cattle. Then you called it wives. Now you call it prostitution. The High Priestesses of the real God. You bought us to buy God, The Mother, The Universe and you caged us, separated us from our Divine gifts and skills in the Temple and drove us mad and then lost interest in us, because we had no gifts left, no excitement, no hunter in ourselves and no hope or joy left. Then you just called us mad and discarded us. You called us evil and you call love obedience, even though it had already killed us. You moved into our Temples and you played with the divination tools and thought you communed. The destruction of Atlantis was your gift. You stole us from God, The Mother, The Universe and you tried to usurp us. You vilified us, enslaved us and you still envy us today. You call it intuition. You might want to think about this when you hate us out of your jealousy. The mystic gene means physical tortuous pain and taking on the empathy of the human race. All their pains, evils and dark thoughts. We see and feel everything. We make crucial sacrifices to be near Spirit and the unseen and we go without for years. To be shaman is not glamour. I make it glamour. To be shaman is a specific Samurai existence, ascetic and harsh. We commune to be guides. And you take that and you shame yourselves because you just want the meat. You didn’t just want the meat. You wanted our beauty of spirit, our personalities and our love and kindness. And you destroyed them, because you caged us and called us wife.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2012
The High Priestess Sacred Whores, the High Priests and the true protectors. Those who do not have the gift like either the High Priests or especially like the highest of all, the High Priestess Sacred Whores but who honour, protect and facilitate them to the world. Who honour the Shaman Sacred Whores of this world most of all, and who know who they are and who they are not. Who know the difference, who do not envy and who protect and love the representatives of Spirit, GOD, THE MOTHER, THE UNIVERSE, on Earth. Who honour their wisdom and who honour the latent Shaman in themselves too and who honour the communing ability of the High Priestess Sacred Whores. The non violators. Our only friends. The New Society exists. It is called Enlightenment. It is called Love. It is The Holy Grail.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2012
The master race. It's all a lie. You are brought up to be a despot king and it is only your sister who ever tells you that you have become a pratt. The master race is all a lie. There are no kings in an equal world. Your father was misinformed. What he brought you up to be was a killer. Pure and simple. A misogynist. A modern misogynist. A polite killer.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
I enter the magical hours of pure feeling, pure thought, pure imagination and I think and I write and I 'mysticise' the Universe. I escape at will, the truth of my humanless, Samurai solitude, and I pursue the truth of love in myself and in everyone else. I am philosopher. I am shaman. I am alone. I frontier the Soul to be spirit on Earth.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
Amera Ziganii Rao is a former hard news journalist who is now turning professional with her art forms and indeed, her healing forms, after a long journey of inner searching, self teaching and exploring many layers and areas of both craft and wisdom. She is now working on her first book of philosophy and esoteric thought, and social, cultural and spiritual commentary. She is also showing her first photography collections. And last but most definitely not least, she is building a business to share her Sacred Whore High Priestess Society consciousness and empowering explorations to reach as many people as possible across the world. She is in her forties and lives in London.
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