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Consciousness. The politics of the 21st century. The Lost Knowledge. Forget trying to change the world. Change yourself. It changes your own world that changes the world.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
Sexuality, non religious 'Wizard' and 'Witch' spirituality (the Gnostic intelligence of esoteric and consciousness exploration, ie wisdom and love) and human rights are the least fashionable things and the most uncomfortable things on the planet. And the things human beings have been damning and condemning for 8000 years. And the things that most people are absolutely fascinated by. What a shame. How bourgeois. How ordinary. How ego.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
The Right To Leave One's Family and Background and Grow Up. The Right To Leave Any Abusive Relationship or Situation. The Courage To Leave. The Courage and the Certainty To Live. The Courage To Become Free.
The final taboo. Family. The Tribe. Servitude under the guise of duty. Slavery under the guise of honour. Love under the guise of misery, co-dependency and cowardice. Born human, nurtured to become slaves and born to become free. The truth about the real struggle to leave home and grow up. Fascism is as domestic as it is global. As female as it is male. As dangerous as it is ugly. And never ever far away. The last taboo is family. The right to leave one's family. The right to leave the Tribe and the right to be you. The right to be anything you fucking well want to be. The courage and the right. The last taboo. Worldwide, generic, across religions, across societies, class, cultures and eras. The last taboo. Family.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
Put aside the Geisha Chattel to whoremongers, marital or family. Put aside the Geisha Chattel. Become who you were born to be.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
Studies in War. Amera Ziganii Rao Alchemy and Liberation™. The real studies in leadership for a people of beauty and heart of soul, like us. We have to go to war. Ridley Scott's 'Gladiator'. Peter Jackson's 'Lord of The Rings'. The return of The Female Kings™. Female and male, if you like. Female Kings.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
I am the greatest threat to the Patriarchal Toilet Tribe civilisation (I use that word loosely) since the beginning of time. I am Hekate, Lilith and Kali. I am the dark angel of truth and I will have my vengeance on this Earth. It is called justice. The justice of true love. The justice of love.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
The female beast is as beautiful as the gentle angel. An angry female warrior is sexy. A successful woman is sexy. An intelligent and intellectual force in a woman is sexy. A powerful woman is sexy. A high achiever female is sexy. A serious minded Amazonian (real Amazonian) woman is sexy. A woman obsessed with her vocation is sexy. The boardroom beast female is sexy.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2005
Excerpts from © Alchemy & Liberation & Humanity Methods of Change™
It is my low self esteem and lack of confidence that are my vulnerabilities. I allow that. I am so courageous to do anything as a result. I have low self esteem and that is okay because I have the right to have a vulnerability and to be human.
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The enemy. To be acknowledged and then ignored: A disempowerer. A poisonous person. A self esteem sucker. A dream crusher. Evil. A person of the lie. The bitter. The unforgiving. A self belief murderer. The cruel. The venomous. The sick who have not yet acknowledged their sickness.
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I intend to become love now and leave the selfish, conditional, testing love of my past behaviour behind.
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My love purpose. Unconditional love. Love without conditions. Love without demands. Love with no selfishness. Love with no blame. Love with no projection. Love with taking responsibility for regularly ‘eating’ my ‘agents’ of; rejection, abandonment, judgement, fear of judgement, addiction and all the rest. Not taking anything personally and not, NOT giving anything because of personal issues. And love with total empathy. His (her) vulnerability is my vulnerability is his (hers). Unconditional love.
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God wants me to question God!
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I release all fear of abandonment in life. I release all fear of rejection. I am love and the fear is not real. If it is, it is not personal. I accept the truth of that. I am love and I am loveable and I am loved. I release all fear of rejection and abandonment and look to myself to lead in love instead. To lead in love and lead in life. I am love, and loved.
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I take my fear and I get out of the way. I let soul speak. I release the fear of soul speaking and I let Her speak. I welcome getting out of the way. I welcome my real parent. Soul. I trust the invisible. I trust not holding onto anything and letting Her speak life through me, whether I am female or male. I let Her speak through me. I get out of the way in relief and happiness. I ignore the fear and I see what happens. I like it. I like getting out of the way. And when I do, I like what I see and hear. I like getting out of the way.
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I acknowledge, female or male, that my body is the most seditious thing I own. That my body represents everything that normal religious or non religious society says is shameful. I acknowledge that my body, my primal, my sexual, my sensual, my physical, my passionate, my courageously rage ridden heart of truth, my instinctive hunter self, female or male is the most vilified, attacked and shamed thing on the planet and I reject all subconscious temptation to succumb to that piece of crap teaching. I release all subconscious temptation to succumb to these forms of endemic and psychologically war-faring, slave control. I like my body, my sensuality, my sexuality, my passion and my heart. I demand to own it, show it and live by it. I release all inhibition and know this is my most basic human right. I release all the subconscious shame and terror that I have lived with since I can remember. I have a right to be sensual and I claim it completely and utterly and forever. I go up against the tribe. I am sex. I am love. I am life. I step out of the tribe and I leave those behind, who do not have the courage. There are only two tribes and I no longer live in the normal one. I am sex. I am love. I am life.
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I embrace my tender and deeply sensitive and SPIRITUALLY YEARNING heart. Temple or mortal, Hierophant Priestesses (Priests) or Earth Kings and Queens, archetype or the other, female or male, I embrace my spiritual heart. The one that’s been dead a very long time. That cerebral, angry, cynical, dry, bitter, cold and logical scientific mind of mine, that has bandaged up my agony about my past. I embrace the return of my spiritual, emotional and tearful heart again. I embrace the truth that I do have it. The inner heart. The gift of Wizard is not exclusive. And neither is the way of Hierophant. I have denied imagination my whole life and I release that lie. I accept my yearning heart. I accept that my yearning heart is a heart of love. I remember that I once loved. Once loved everything. I accept that not only have I been traumatised by life, I have been traumatised by birth. I release my rage. I accept too, that I have been a coward all my life. I accept that I have bought the bullying. That my macho (female or male) mask hides the truth. That to be tender on Earth is the most dangerous thing. I do it anyway. I do it because I am strong. I am strong because I am spirit. I remember Spirit and Spirit remembers me. I am spirit. I release all rage at birth, terror at being alive and remember that I am no longer a small child. I am no longer defenceless and I can release the wounds of being powerless. I am power. I am spirit. I release fear of loss, fear of rejection and fear of other people. I am spirit. I am me. I am the intelligence and beauty of love. I am the courage of love.
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I release my adoration and love for enslaving other human beings. I release all beliefs, deeply hidden within me, that women are here to be my slaves. I release my fantasy of The Geisha Slaver™. I release my dinosaur ‘liberal’ misogyny. It is still slavery and I finally accept that I am not allowed to do it anymore. I finally accept I have to share power. I hate that. I want to be able to do what my father was allowed to do. What every other man is allowed to do. I love power and want to hold onto it. I accept I am fucked. That The New World is here, whether I like it or not. I release the dinosaur in me. The Geisha Slaver™. I accept that I hate that and I accept I am allowed to hate it, but I also accept that it’s wrong. I have to share power and I find the humility in myself to know that my days of the ‘RingWraith’ are over. The days of corruption are over. I accept I am being forced to share power and submit to the torture of it. I accept and embrace the state of love and innocence instead. I am humbled and I embrace the redemption. I embrace it, for ALL the women I know and want to love.
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I release my adoration and love for enslaving other human beings. I release all beliefs, deeply hidden within me, that anyone is here to be my slave. As a mother or father, I release my will to suffocate, control, keep by my side and have as my own, my personal priestess or priest. I acknowledge that my child is an individual in their own right. As offspring, I release my will to suffocate and demand ownership of my parent or parent figure in my life. As an automatic, programmed enslaver, I release my will to own my child/friend/sister/brother and so on. I embrace the freedom of loving truly. Of not owning anyone or anything. Of loving. Of loving myself enough to love. Of trusting my own loveability, instead of needing to control every person around me. I am love and I am loved. I no longer believe in enslaving other human beings. I believe in love and take responsibility, happily, for my own greeds and needs. Control is not love. I, male or female, totally accept that harsh discipline of reality. I embrace unselfish love, whatever it takes.
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I embrace the deep secret of my heart. The Shaman yearning to learn how to connect with what is Spirit. The yearning we all have. The gift that we all have to whichever level. The many different kinds of latent spiritual healers that we all are. Those of us who feel the music. And those of us who try. I release all fear about the ‘alternative’ spiritualities and consciousness explorations that seem to be everywhere now. All fear, all judgment and all logical reasons, not to look into myself. I release the old life and embrace the necessity and fascination of looking within and embracing the emotional, thought and feeling frontiers of my being. I accept the pain that is involved and I dive in. I like it and I dive in. I release all bourgeois conditioning and religious induced judgements that pervade my whole subconscious being. I release both the ‘education’ of it, and the folk tales that have dulled my mind into only metaphor, without analysis. I embrace spiritual analysis. I embrace shaman, Hierophant and anything else that is out there. I commit to the education and open up to a wide and beautiful, new world. I embrace The Female Wisdom Society™ and I embrace the Sacred Whore High Priestess. I love women and embrace ALL that they are.
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I totally release any draw towards personal relationship of any kind, now and forever. I accept that love is a utopian reality from the ancient world and no longer available on earth. Hell is not only other people, other than in business, hell is the world of men. Hell is men. I accept and release relationship forever. I believed that it was me who was not loved. I know now that it has never been personal. No one is loved. Men do not love. They try. The men and women who are outside of the temple. But they do not love. No one loves anyone. The ancient world is lost. I embrace the real New World; self determination, individuality, universal love and total and utter self care and self companionship. There can be no love in the world of men. I am willing to face the pain of that grief and begin again. I thought they didn’t love me. I know now they just do not love. Mira Nair’s Kama Sutra indeed. Walking away. All round. Done. Now, I am free. This IS as good as it gets. As far as love is concerned of course. Everything else? Yes please. Now, that can be great. That I can love. That, I can finally do. As Alfred Lord Tennyson says, ‘’tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all’. I loved and I grew strong. He never loved. He will never grow strong.
The ancient world is lost. All that remains is male vanity for something they never even did. But we are back. The Priest Valkyries. The Warlords of Light™. The rest will come in Millennia. The New World is hard and cold and lonely. It is also free. ‘Freedom or death’. Emmeline Pankhurst said exactly 100 years ago. Free just ain’t free. But it is free. And that will have to do. Anything is better than the agony of being with a limp and lifeless cock of cruelty. Male or female, I’ve ‘enjoyed’ it for the last time. Thank fuck for that. The New World. It will rape you beyond death. But it is The New World. And it is a path that has to be completed. It makes us who we are. The bliss and the violation is essential, for us to find the will to live.
I embrace those truths, accept the emotional, spiritual and human ‘rape’ of it all, and walk the new path at last and in relief. I can already see everyone else who is on it. I never wanted a ‘Mark Anthony’ anyway. And that is why there can never be pacts between Lionesses and men. I wanted a Caesar. I wanted an equal. The idealism of the stupid world. They were never our equals. They only look like men. Desire is easy. Desire is everywhere. Desire is the only friendship between High Priestesses and the world of men. And soul desire does one fine. That is the return home, through violation.
The rest is lies. The rest is greatness. The rest is female Temple greatness and love. The rest is life. The rest is friendship. The Age of Aquarius indeed. Anything, as long as it’s not personal. That time is not yet here. This is the time for universal love, and war.
Business, achievement and conquering old patterns. Defeating the poison that is out there by redressing the balance.
This is the time for love. My love. Alone. The lone cowgirl at last. The nomad and the gypsy. Samurai. Amera Ziganii Rao. The abundance and life force of the outsiders will inherit the earth.
Thanks for the memories and fuck ‘love’ anyway. I’m busy. Busy forever.
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We create destiny by changing our fate. We become co-creators by changing the patterns.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
ALCHEMY & LIBERATION & HUMANITY™
Second Existence. Soul. Second Existence. Second Love. Second Life. Second Thought. Second Feeling. Second Sensuality. Second Physicality. Second Understanding. Second Sexuality. Second Imagination. Second Mind. Second Being. Second Psyche. Getting out of the way. Courage. Intuition. Forgiveness. Love. Second Self. The Real Self. Soul.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
A Life of Ascension. A Life of Disability. A Life of Odyssey. A Life of Heroism. A Life of Love. A Life of Life.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
True Love, freedom, sedition and self responsibility. Ego to Soul. Love and Sex.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
Last night I lay with angels. Yesterday I served men. Today, I fly with gods. The Ascension life. Alchemy & Liberation & Humanity™.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
Male (female male) madness. Why do we not know about that? Because no one understands it? Or it is too similar to the hollow madness of the world?
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2010
Feminism has not even begun.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
That’s it. I am born. We are born. The miracle of life is upon us. The Holy Grail of requited and fulfilled love. The true love of unadulterated and unhesitating love. The Twin Souls that we are on earth as well as it is in heaven.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2008
The art can be the only thing that matters. The art is the only thing that has ever mattered. The art is the only thing that has ever been allowed to matter. Enlightenment is about acceptance. That means crucifixion. And resurrection. The Gnostic truth. Everyone is meant to do it. Everyone will.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
Self Determination
When I met him, I was working avidly on self determination. The hefty task with the legacy of chattel slavery. He was always working on power and how to share it, despite himself. The legacy of misogyny and fascism. Then came the love.
Now the journey is over. Part one. Now, we are back to the same journey. Temporarily or forever. Who knows and that is not, sadly the point. The point is growth. The relentless force of creation. God. God, The Mother, The Universe. The machine of creation.
Back to the same journey. The rite of passage after enlightenment. Back to the beginning. For me, self determination, and for him, learning how to share power. The dynamic of earth. The dynamic it seems, of existence. And of course, alone. Creation is alone. Only redemption is the team. Any team.
The purgatory life. Pure suffering and joyless training. Training, but training for good. The rest takes belligerent humility. And of course, submitting to be celestially and terrestrially fucked over so you cannot even breathe. And beginning again. As was meant to be. Strengthened, broken completely and utterly and in final acceptance of the cruelty of the wholeness of love.
We release the hunter in ourselves, when we have been hunted beyond reason. Violated by fate. Raped by fate. That is fate. That is also human. That is the antagonistic force. The one we crave for, for all lifetimes. Such is the irony of all things. We want it. We get it. We need it. We get it.
And then, of course, like all mythic stories, we have to go back to the beginning and lose. And then prove ourselves. Might be done in a hundred. I'll let you know.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
The Meek To Inherit The Earth
For the meek to inherit the earth, the meek have to understand that we ARE the meek. From a place of no power, therefore, comes power. A deep, spiritual power. Alongside a deep, pragmatic power. Warrior power. Not the fascist equivalent. The rest is facing the devastation of failure, because it was never meant to succeed.
We chase their power because it’s the only one on offer. We think it’s care. It’s not. The other is The Lost Knowledge™. That is excruciating itself to find and implement and BECOME. Then comes the truth that it still makes you weak and meek. That was only the spiritual and creative power. In business terms though, it is ‘entering art school’ or having the original product for the market you want to be in. There are many perceptions of the same. The dynamic on earth however remains. Outsiders, the meek, those who are disadvantaged and those who are weak. The vulnerables in all our guises. Let alone, the recovery from the history on this planet. In just one half lifetime.
And really, all it means is this. There is no positive discrimination on earth for us. Modern times demand no care, no help and no indulgence. Life for the evolving warrior is hard, cold and lonely. But pretty every so often, and then consistently improving, slowly and modestly and humbly. The meek do not have power. We are supposed to be the meek. We are supposed to find the other power. The greatest power, off earth. The one that the others it seems cannot see at all. Our purpose is to find that power, train in that power, prove ourselves in that power, and then return to the meek, to become the powerful in the physical realm equivalent.
Like I say, maybe a hundred years. So what. Nothing else to do anyway. Might as well bid for redemption. Why the fuck not. It’s good to know what I am after all. Just a shepherd again. I don’t have to DO anything. I just have to shut up and carry out my orders. Why the fuck not. The cruelty of existence. Accept it and fly. Fly with the shackles that do not leave us until they are meant to.
We all have purpose. And we are all meant to suffer. Suffering brings compassion. And we are all a filthy hearted people. High Priestess or Priest or mortal. As we were SUPPOSED to be. The cruel wheel of life. We need to suffer. We need to suffer, to finally, forgive.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
Personal Development. Amera Ziganii Rao
The world of personal development. Still a strange term for many of us, especially the background I come from. What is that background? Ultimately, the so called normal world, the normal society we live in and anything usual or normal. What is normal? What most people do. These seem to be the rather simplistic tunes we live to. I was born into that. But I was born me. That’s why I had to make the journey and why anyone who can hear their real selves, will have to too. Will be fortunate enough to. In this most stunningly fortunate of times really. The times of personal development and free press.
The normal world. The one most people if not everyone, has been born to. In some way or other, we are all afflicted. Mainstream media, the arts and anything that is normal society does not promote personal development, literal wisdom, literal philosophy or literal words by any of the greatest minds on the planet. The writers, thinkers and philosophers who are relegated to the world of academia and kept further away from us, as we all get wrapped up in our obvious lives and get our sources of knowledge and inspiration from our obvious sources. Such is the power of the media. We live in the most powerful and most dangerous and most empowering times. Free press. TV or internet, free rag on the underground in a metropolis, or reading quality papers or the myriad of specialised and more indepth magazines that cost as much as a paperback book. It’s all there for us. But personal development is still the one on the outside.
The years have brought us forward however, with the new metaphor magic of JK Rowling and all that is Harry Potter, bursting forth new generations who like wizardry and who have a new vernacular. As does their schooling, with psychology, media and life studies in the curriculum. Things have moved on and for someone like me, deep in the heart of all that is personal development and then all that is The Lost Knowledge™, recalling my real wizardry and finding out how everyone can in the ways they can, that is real joy and wonder. The world is waking up. As I am. And it is all actually, personal development, applied psychology, applied sociology, applied mind change, applied self empowerment, applied anthropology, applied LOST KNOWLEDGE™, applied Hierophant knowledge, applied Shaman knowledge and applied High Priestess knowledge. All that is the inner psyche and how it can run your life like magical clockwork. Alchemy & Liberation™. The journey Eve was making. Who are we and what is life. Applied TRUTH. It’s as Harry Potter as life can get. A glorious, hair raising, heart stabbing, humility demanding, soul stripping, magical adventure. At last, more than a nightmare.
I keep hearing Rhonda Byrne and The Secret being mentioned, so these are clearly new days and that is glorious. Wizardry or self actualisation or personal development, or emotional growth from invisibility into superstardom, as a state of being, creating self esteem from the rate of zero, or retrieving your soul, or wisdom, and the acquiring of wisdom, or the acquiring of everything we ever want – there are many ways to describe the real journey in life – they are all the same wondrous, Gnostic, self crucifying, emotionally cleansing, soul stripping, journey of Ascension. Personal development is Temple work.
As my own work progresses, I have been featuring some of the excellent teachers, who taught me, in my 15 years of spiritual and esoteric and psychological and shamanic and anthropology self teaching, either through their books or CDs, or through their live seminars, and indeed the many seminars that are live online. Deepak Chopra, Wayne Dyer and Christopher Howard and Osho are some of the teachers I have featured so far. Doreen Virtue, Don Miguel Ruiz, Gary Zukav and Neale Donald Walsch. All very big players, excellent teachers and excellent wizards. ‘The revolution will not be televised’. Gil Scott Heron. The thing about The Lost Knowledge™ is this. It has to be searched for. It is not allowed into obvious realms of media, for very obvious reasons. Self empowerment just goes against their agenda. It’s the same reason why western cities – mind you, look at Dubai – are banning all freedoms. Death of the spirit is their only agenda. The revolution is not being televised. The answers to success and health and wealth and emotional peace, have to be searched for. Fortunately, that is the best way to heal the psyche. Searching means the recognition of the language of symbols begins. That is intuition of a level and the language of The Universe. For that, we have to work with our emotions and that means therapy and all that is looking within, has to be the new sex.
In my own searching, I can tell you in particular, that one of these teachers in my own life, Christopher Howard, took me through a phenomenal three day event that changed me completely and utterly, and for the next three years, I listened to Deepak Chopra, Wayne Dyer and Anthony Robbins every single day, until I changed. And that was thanks to an enterprising friend I met at Christopher Howard who very kindly pirated me copies. Synchronicity. ‘I don’t listen to music anymore’ he said. ‘I listen to these’. I am sure he does listen to music as do I, but the shift into education as something you choose to do on your ipod, rather than the preferred listening to music, shifted me for life. The commitment was made, even though I had already been on the journey for 10 years, up to that point. We are brought up to be so lazy and stupid and illusional. And of course, one thing more than anything other. To ignore our pain. In fact, we are brought up to be beaten, for having pain. That is the normal world.
On my own journey, at first glance I could say that spiritual energy healing, as I will call it, took up about six years, emotional therapy a few more, self teaching in creative training in all my art forms many more years, self teaching in the world’s wisdom more years and so on. And on it goes, and so it should. To embrace this world completely, the world of The Lost Knowledge™, as I have termed it, I recommend everything. Because there is so much. And so much to change in ourselves. Enjoy it.
I feature Anthony Robbins here. I still listen to the CDs from these different teachers all the time. These have been the best years. The constant education and inspiration and stimulation. Like visuals, audio is very easy on the mind. Whichever form it is though, it is education and education is the vital issue about personal development. Just as it is for anything else. We are not brought up to value emotional education. This is what is so painful. Catching up on not only The Lost Knowledge™. Which is essentially what it is, but also changing one’s mindset to embrace that it is the single most important area of education in any life. Because it runs everything else. Warrior skills. Life skills. Hunter skills and love skills. All the skills you could ever think of. It all comes from emotional education. The High Priestess way.
And emotional growth and spiritual growth and confidence growth and whole-self growth is like anything else. It takes hard work. Of course it takes understanding too, and there is no doubt about it, that consciousness is the hardest language and intelligence to acquire. I remember the shock I had, when I was a tender 19 year old in my first lecture at higher education. It was a social science and politics degree. And I sat there in the first lecture and was practically weeping afterwards. I had not understood one word. Not one word. The lecturer saw me and comforted me and told me the same thing I can tell you. It is a brand new language and you do begin to get it. It doesn’t matter how little you understand at the beginning.
That rare and generous parenting did it for me and I did keep at it. And I did understand and then I understood too well it seems. I was then told I was being too provocative in an essay (by another professor) and was too weak spirited to follow that up with any enthusiasm. I mention that, because that is also a fundamental problem for humankind. And certainly dominated my life forever. I see now how it is a generic problem, especially of our times. And everything to do with having been abused at home. Abuse being neglect, abuse, harshness, emotional wars, violence, hyper criticism, or abandonment at any level. The micro matches the macro. Our family dynamic, I am now convinced, in my work, reflects the dynamic we have with the world as our issues to deal with and heal and transform in the life we are here to live, this time around.
Losing heart. Surely the greatest weapon of any fascism environment, inside the home, or in the workplace, or in the country or anywhere. Apathy, giving up, being shocked into inaction, resignation, trauma, worse, silent non crying trauma, depression, hedonism, terror, and so on. All projecting in need and greed and different kinds of hedonism and hunger and avoidance. We all have it. They made sure of it. They make sure of it every single, fucking, day. And they always will. But we have a choice. No one needs to live under fascism. No one needs to lose heart. Or rather, no one needs to stay with a lost heart.
Personal Development as is the umbrella term that is good enough for me, finds heart. Simple as. Personal Development brings back your heart.
We do lose heart, that is the way, and if we want to succeed, we cannot lose heart. The so called Sensitives that we are, the so called spiritual hearted people, inside The Temple, or outside, good wizard high priestesses or naughty werewolf wizards or wounded wizard high priestesses, or mean and weak werewolf wizards, we have all lost heart and we all lost heart a very very very long time ago. The search for the knowledge has to include the anthropology. We are an angry people. All of us.
We all walk around with our terrible wounds, all shitting on each other in ego, whatever archetype, with everyone too polite or scared or controlled to say anything about it, too driven by need, and then of course, with the central arena of executioner werewolf/fascism archetype and vulnerable/victim harridan helpless archetype, as the main arena of war, whether it is your mother or your father or your partner or your offspring or your so called best friend or your boss or your favourite bullies in your life. And there is nowhere to go, because none of us want to find out what the pain is from in the first place. And because it is just not prevalent enough in usual life. But the agenda of society backs up our own reluctance. We are brought up to be beaten, for having pain. We only search when we have to. And like anything, consciousness is hard work. And like anything, the harder you work, the better you get.
Consciousness, raising the vibration of oneself and taking oneself into higher intelligence, is about one thing. Repetition. Listening through audio does that, whether one is really listening every time or not. Alchemy & Liberation™ is about not only accessing the higher mind and the inner heart, it is therefore about becoming psychic. That is a vast area of expertise with many definitions. I am only just catching up. At the same time, it is something we are all familiar with. We all unconsciously learn to be with the unseen world, to live in our imaginations, to have a relationship with ourselves, functional or dysfunctional and we all fall asleep after reading. We all in some ways, live inbetween the two worlds. Live with the two worlds. If we do anything creative or artistic, we are consciously learning how to do that. If we access and learn from consciousness knowledge itself, we are consciously being conscious.
In other words, everyone should be in therapy.
Repetition. The consciousness journey. Many sources. The consciousness journey. Studying in private because of the still ridiculous attitude to pain in society. The consciousness journey. Persisting with it, despite it being the most obtuse language and conceptual material you’ve ever come across. The consciousness journey. You are definitely on the right track.
Repetition and training. The growing of confidence and courage is one thing. Repetition. The growing of emotional intelligence is about one thing. Repetition. It also means you shut the bullshit out. And that is the most important thing too.
Re-direct who you are invaded by. Re-direct what penetrates you, what ‘osmosifies’ into you, what you absorb. Choose. Everyone is selling and why not? Good, evil, whatever, that’s not the point. Without the consciousness education taking up our time or our brain power, the emotional self is drawn to the poison of the normal world. And it is poisonous. We have to be politically, psychologically, anthropologically and sociologically very particular about what we allow into our stratosphere of existence. We are allowed to choose. We feel oppressed when we see no choice. There is a choice. Switch off. Switch off for now and enter a different world. Give yourself hope and widen your visions. There is so much hope.
It’s a free market of a crazy world and that’s why we have to choose. That’s why the disciplines for improving oneself in this extraordinary, magical, self crucifying, self teaching, self growing way, are quite reasonable really. And why frankly, evil is not to be feared for one second. The knowledge is there. The work is our responsibility.
We are ALLOWED to choose what comes into our minds. Maybe that’s the biggest thing to learn in life. We are allowed to choose. But that choice brings pain because it brings truth and back to the beginning and so on and then forgetting we are actually allowed to choose and so on. Round and round, until we get it. And can face it, and have made the journey, as it was meant to be made. But it’s also because we just don’t know. We just don’t know and it’s a fuck of a lot of work. And it’s a fuck of a lot of work, in the face of silent pressure from all around you subconsciously pulling you back into the poison. Yes, it is a very hard journey to make. Yes. Ask yourself this though. Are you bored? I am not. The one thing I am not, is bored. I cannot believe for one second, what the world has become for me, since entering the ‘alternative’ world. We are brought up to devalue all of it so much. The weapons of mass destruction are in our living rooms. The media is the most powerful force on earth today. And we have to discern which of the many influences we want. That is our power. And which ones we want to believe. We are too intelligent to keep at that normal, pain beating, illusional, ego, regular person kind of person in pain, misery and depression and fear platform. Consciousness waits for everyone.
I feature Anthony Robbins here because it takes us back to the beginning. I would recommend, as with all the teachers, including myself in the future, to get these CDs for yourself. And as for Anthony Robbins, who I am featuring here, you definitely want to listen to him. The enthusiasm and humanity and passion of this man blasts you out of the deepest ‘boredom’, let alone apathy. And most certainly, fear. The words are good too. Here’s some of them.
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Power Dependency
Love dependency and power dependency. The reason why The Two Tribes should be reared separately. Forever. Which Two Tribes I don’t know. The two archetypes. The so called victim archetype and the so called executioner archetype. The two emotional sicknesses are not based on love. They are and they are not. Love dependency is the psychotic and then sociological healing of being addicted to love. Power dependency is therefore the equivalent. The addiction to power over love.
Love dependency per se, through my long years of self healing, is addiction to power over others per se, too. For love, the ego tells itself. All addiction is based on that. All ego emotion that is not healed, controlled or purified or crafted, is about addiction to power over others, addiction to pleasure, addiction to escape and addiction to life after death, frankly, addiction to heaven.
The more one comes from a suffocating background of worthlessness and no self expression, the more one moves into one’s addiction of love dependency. The legacy of slavery, the legacy of the female psyche on earth. It’s not wanted, so it seeks love. That is love dependency and having cured the psychosis of it four years ago, I now find myself ‘back’ in the healing, as I heal the sociological and anthropological and political and historical and spiritual contexts of it. I am falling in love with power and my journey demands it. And that takes more of guess what? Solitude and no (human) love. Love dependency healing is endless.
I however was mistaken. Love dependency in ‘the other’ is not love dependency. It is not an addiction to love in any form whatsoever. It is an addiction to power, as an entity in itself. Love addiction is an addition to love as an entity in itself. Power addiction is therefore an addiction to power as an entity in itself.
There is no convergence. The two emotional ‘purgatoria’ of existence. The two emotional paths of the need for crafting life. As I have been working with and curing and conquering and crafting love dependency my whole life, he has been doing the same with power dependency, consciously or unconsciously. He is the ‘darkness’ of ‘love’. I am the light. The drive for fascism in him and the drive for escape and the co-dependency of ‘wanting’ love in me. The drive for beauty. Venus. Mars doesn’t care about beauty. Mars only cares about power.
It’s always been the same path. The language reveals the levels of consciousness. The levels of truth. The more extreme the background, the more primitive the emotional makeup of one’s being, the normal world being The Primitive Tribe™, the harder and longer the healing.
I am being cured out of love into love of power. He is being cured out of power into love of love. The real courtship hurts. Nothing will ever hurt more. Real true love is wisdom. Wisdom always hurts.
He’s never been in love with love. He’s always been in love with power. Asking a pseudo dominant to share power therefore, is – in his ego mind – telling him to give it up. That’s what I had to do with love, to heal. Yes, you have to give up power. I had to give up love and I have to give up love every single day. Yes, you have to give up power. You will always have to give up power.
No wonder men and the women like you, don't love.
In ego, I did not even have a relationship with power. In ego, you do not even have a relationship with love. In soul, my new love is my new power learning self. In ego, you are still addicted to power. You are still in love with power and you are still completely judgmental and scared and critical and damning of love. I used to feel that way about power. Indeed, the pacts are long and lonely. But worth it. You lot do not even have a relationship with love, while we yearn for relationship with an actual person. Oceans apart.
Healing will come. It is written. But you have yet to even meet love, let alone become it. See you in ten. I’m running off into the sunset with power. Love, frankly, bores me. The ‘whore and Madonna’ explained in one. You marry one kind and ‘love’ another kind. Not out of religion, not out of society, not out of something else. You do it for power. Love is indeed, the strip-club naughty moment for you. Not sex. Love. No wonder. I have your mistress now, or is it your wife? I lose track, even if your madness is as lucid as glass today.
Your madness is that you do not love. Mine was that I did. I have a new true love now. Power. Power is my new true love. Because I never had an addiction to it. The Frodo symbolism, even for the generically impure of heart. Ascension is purification.
Other than that, it’s all tragic. So what. Earth is such a tragic place. You have never loved anything in your life. Cliches really do work, and that's so sad. But foolishly obvious I suppose. You love power. The victory over the tragedy is that I now know. You do not have a relationship with love, let alone me. You love power. You love power, with a psychotic addiction. You love, therefore, neither power, nor love. And that is why you will heal. You want to exist.
Such is the root of fascism across the world. The living death. But at last, I do not have to love. Because there's nothing to love.
There is only, ironically, for different reasons and in completely different ways, in both you and me, power. I no longer have to love. Yay for freedom.
Yours is an addiction to power OVER LOVE. Mine is (now, in soul) just a love of power, WITH LOVE.
Ascension. I got there first. Yay for freedom. No matter. You have your bed fellow. Corruption of power. Addiction to power per se. Hatred of love. Addiction to power OVER LOVE. The vampire gene. The inner workings of the reformed sadist I yearned for. I get it. Crafting the darkness is as awesome as crafting the light.
You will exist. Complete the process and luck has nothing to do with it. Spiritual Existentialism is to manufacture a miracle. For you, that means meeting something in yourself you've never met.
YOUR love.
Then one day, you may be worthy of entering mine.
And me? I'm off to dance with power. MY power. I no longer need to love.
Yay for freedom. Gosh. Love was so worth it. Masturbation indeed. Love someone who is addicted to power.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
Love dependency in ‘the other’ is not love dependency. It is not an addiction to love in any form whatsoever. It is an addiction to power, as an entity in itself. Love addiction is an addition to love as an entity in itself. Power addiction is therefore an addiction to power as an entity in itself. There is no convergence.
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Men therefore, are abuse of power. They are abuse of power, by their very essence. They are also the worst abuse of power in the world, because their essential abuse of power archetype is backed institutionally, by a system of male abuse of power. Men, are therefore, abuse of power. The agony is that we are all taught that they give. The agony is that we are all taught that they love. The agony is the journey to face the lie of that truth. To viscerally live the effects of the lie. Men do not love.
Men are abuse of power. And of course, the delightful women like them, also backed by institutional power. The family. Ninety percent of the world’s income is earned by men, and men are abuse of power. The Patriarchal Matriarchal Tribe Society from Hell™.
The New World may be far off, but it exists. Just a quite banal rite of passage. Leaving evil. Belligerent self determination, isolation and starting again. Men can only be abuse of power. They are abuse of power, by their very essence. The myth can finally die. Life is to be about power, achievement and nothing else. Men do not love and men are abuse of power.
And for a human being, a woman who feels, that is as devastating as it sounds. Pre love dependency healing, it can kill you. Post love dependency healing, it devastates you. There is no way out. Other than out. Which is why art exists.
Which is why following your vocational dreams is a thousand times more important, that journey of course, being the healing of love dependency in the first place. The only love that will ever be there for you.
Vocation. Art. True work of whatever kind. There love can be found. Creativity is love. Ambition is love and power is love.
Men abuse power. Men do not love. Transmute that love. Be power. Be love. Be love where it counts. Anywhere, but with men. The system cannot be improved. The system has to be left. The system has to beat you for you to finally give up. Because earth is hell and based on nothing but lies. Face that and success is possible. It is not enough for a survivor to survive. A survivor has to thrive. That is justice. The only justice there is.
Men do not love. Men are abuse of power. Men are not an option. Relationship is a myth. Life is the only reality. And if you do it right, life is art. That is as good as it gets. Men do not love. Men abuse power. Men ARE abuse of power. Art is the only love there is.
The journey is about transmuting one love into another. Pure, bootcamp agony. Human rights. To reject abuse of power is to become a lifelong freedom fighter. To reject abuse of power therefore, is to reject ‘love’. Men do not love. Men – and the women like them – can only ‘love’. And that means they can only kill you. Men do not love. ‘Love’ is therefore to be rejected. Life is for the self for a freedom fighter. All women are freedom fighters. Ergo, there is no love. There is only the self. And there is life.
As long as it has nothing to do with male (or female) love, there is hope. Hope for nothing, unless love itself is rejected. Love in another. The final frontier. To serve only one master. Oneself. To reject love in another. The final non attachment of life. Running solo. For good.
The other may be doing whatever the other may be doing. That is his or her job. That is not ours. Ours is to reject love completely. Love does not exist. And even if it does, it will come long after the rest. Our job is to reject love. That is the relentless agony and my privilege to impart. I got to do it first. Yay for freedom. Yay for life. So what. It’s done.
Freedom fighting is a vocational profession and the most important one anyone can do. For a girl, it begins at birth. The good news is that, if we commit, we get good at it. The bad news is that it never stops and never ends. Love can only finally, be rejected.
There can only be preference for sanity in the end. The sanity of emptiness. The sanity of beginning again. The sanity of nothing but the self. The sanity of woman. The sanity of sanity and forgetting the rest.
Love is to be only rejected in the end. Nihilism for a successful life. It was all a big, fat lie. Freedom is accepting that. Freedom can never be freedom on earth. While a people do not love, there can be no real freedom. The freedom that does exist though, is good enough and worth fighting for. Do it. Reject love. Reject love, because you are love. There is no freedom on earth. Take the version there is. That's as good as it gets.
Men do not love. Women do not love. People do not love. 95 percent of this planet does not love. Reject love. You are love. Achieve in anything else instead. As long as it's not love.
That is the healing of love dependency.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
Men must never be allowed to have economic power. Women have to follow the path of all successful minority groups. Total fiscal self sufficiency. Total, separatist, fiscal self sufficiency.
There are no friends for women. Women are freedom fighters or slaves. Before our individual harvests. Our achievement harvests. And always alone. Anything else is a fucking waste of time. There can be no negotiation between Lionesses and men. Men suck.
Democracy in the country and in the home. Forget relationship. Forget children. Forget the family. Make money and love yourself as you live. It was all a lie.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
Cosmic wisdom, the sedition of the politics of humanity and the end of female chattel slavery. And indeed, ‘love chattel slavery’ by either gender. The executioners exist and so do the angels. Chattel slavery is the most invisible oppression in existence. Because no one knows and no one cares. It is the result of fascism. Casual, sick in the head, hog hearted, fascism. No matter. We know. The solution is to heal ourselves first. To become The New World.
Whole human beings of love and war, to take our place back in the world. Properly. Officially and with honour. We are here to be the true inner heart and the true higher mind. We need to become it first. And then we go to war. A war of love, for love, of love. The Girl and Boy Priest Monarchs. The Return. Love intelligence. As for the others. The fascists that can be saved. They can't. Move on.
Sexism? Ownership Psychosis? Abuse of power? Fiscal rape? It's done.
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Men fiscally rape women. Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
Metaphysical Philosophy. Human Politics. Self Actualisation. Freedom Realisation. Truth. Women. GOD, The MOTHER, And SEX. Sex, Power, Intelligence, Humanity and Creation. The Sharing Of Power Like Never Before, Other Than In The Before Of The Before. The Sacred Whore Goddess, High Serpent Amazonian Female Priesthood, Hierophant, Avatar, Valkyrie, Wizard, Monarch, Consciousness Society™. I teach what I am.
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I teach Alchemy in the face of evil. How to turn pain into power. How to turn power into love.
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Selective Soul. Amera Ziganii Rao
Selective Soul is not Ascension. Selective Soul is Fascism. Fascism is not love. Neither is autocracy, patriarchy or patriarchal matriarchy. Selective Soul is not Ascension. Selective Soul is worth shit and fortunately, not my bag.
The two kinds of Priesthood. One is total and the entrance into Paradise on earth as a state of being. Need is not love being the constant alchemy. The other Priesthood or non Priesthood is never total. The entrance can never be alchemised. Because fascism is not love. Never was, never will be. Selective Soul is not Ascension. Selective Soul is pretending. High Serpent Amazonian Priesthood Hierophant is no pretence.
The grief is that we do it alone. Because we do not select.
The fascists can only do that. Ascension therefore is a sole journey to Soul.
Fascism is not love. Fascism is everywhere. Fascism is the mediocrity of this earth. Fascism is earth. Fascism is the dark. The dark can only do selective Soul. Ascension can never be anything other than total.
The proof that women are ahead always. Because Ascension can never be selective. Total surrender or nothing. Fascism cannot do surrender. They can never see Paradise. They can only pretend.
That's them and not our bag. The rest is ours. Paradise on earth. Master magicians of heaven and earth. Because fascism is not love. That is the justice. We get Paradise on earth. They get the soullessness of a barren planet. Their barrenness. Lack of soul.
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The High Initiation Process
Ascension is the process of moving through the mire of earth.
What is the mire?
Fascism + soullessness + mediocrity.
Under the guise of 'love'. Under the guise of 'normal'.
Ascend all the way and ascend alone. You're alone anyway. Use it and grow.
You are not soulless. You can grow.
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