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Ego. The Healing Pt lV. Demanding To Be Needed. Fascism. Amera Ziganii Rao
The key is in the 'being needed'. One is conditional and one is unconditional. You won't leave them because they make you feel needed. You won't love me because I need you. But ego is not altruistic in any shape whatsoever. Ego in your archetype wants to feel needed for ego. In soul, you would give yourself and anything to me because you loved me. So you are trapped in a situation where the appearance of being needed feeds your ego, which stops you actually feeling needed because you refuse to give to me. Who needs you. For you.
Ego and soul. Your archetype.
Your ego has to be killed by you accepting that love is NOT, needing to be needed. Love is GIVING. Pure and simple. Not out of manipulation that you are needed, or fear, or any despot behaviours. Love is giving. Pure and simple. Love is NOT, needing to be needed. That is control and that is what your ego is. The only place you should be doing that is in the bedroom. The only place where it is FUN, is in the bedroom. The only reason a woman like me even looks at a man like you, is because she WANTS it in the bedroom. But that is soul. The healed ego. Ego is the most UNATTRACTIVE thing on earth. You no longer attract me, while you are in this need to be needed ego of the second archetype.
And while your ego holds you in its grip of course, in its silly family mythical love pseudo illusion, you can't do it in the bedroom at all and you are stuck like a limp cock, demanding to be needed, when it is all an illusion. They don't need you. You have created a situation where they have no choice. That is called CO - DEPENDENCY. Nothing you have with them is love.
It's ego.
Ego in the second archetype, needs to be needed. But ego is not altruistic in any form, whatsoever. Love is not, needing to be needed. Love is giving, pure and simple. The difference between conditional love and unconditional love. The difference between non love and love. Love for the second archetype is not manipulation and coercion so you need to be needed. Love is just giving. The only place where 'coercion' in love should exist, is in the bedroom.
That's why they all left me. Because I couldn't feed their stupid egos and pretend to need. When they couldn't even begin to address my real needs. That is the most disgusting form of non love in the world to me. It makes me want to vomit. Frankly. And that is your ego. Men who come into my glorious writer's room flat and tell me that I am not ready for a relationship. Because I will not play a game of pretend to need a man or anyone. Because I am a human being and need and don't need in normal ways. And because I thought they were masters. Because I thought you were one. A master of your own awful ego and a master therefore, fit for me to love as I want to. Sexually, non sexually. A man I could respect. Not a fascist. Been there, done that. Love is NOT, needing to be needed. Love is giving. Your ego. Virulent madness, as Sidney Lumet's film Network says so beautifully. Max Schumacher is saying it to a soulless woman but I am saying it to you. A soulless man. A man whose ego tells him to stay in co - dependency, out of the illusion that that is love, because he BELIEVES he is needed.
Corrupt countries work the same way. Fascists survive because they have coerced a people into believing they need him. Through coercive, bullying, manipulative, withholding tactics. Your ego in one.
That is not love. That is hate. That is ego. That is sickness. That is not even the myth of family love. That is just sickness and hatred.
And that is why, frankly, I have not only shed the illusion of romantic love, the myth of romantic love, (finally, two and a half years ago, after many years of consciously working on it), I have not only done that a long time ago now, I don't even believe in romantic love anymore at all. If you heal, it will be one of the world's rarest miracles. After all, Jerry Maguire did it. The main character in Pretty Woman did it. Darcy did it in Pride and Prejudice. So it exists, yes. But it's the greatest and rarest miracle on earth. One of you, loving. One of your archetype, male or female actually loving and giving, rather than controlling and withholding and therefore abusing.
The rest is virulent madness bulllshit. All of you. Every single one of you that I have ever had the misfortune to meet.
Virulent madness.
Evil.
And THAT is why I am no longer in love with you. I cannot love a man who does that. I cannot love anyone who does that.
And that is why I have LEFT everyone in my life who has ever been like that. Whether they are family, so called friends or so called potential partners. I am looking for a man I can RESPECT. A man who loves. A man who will control me when I want it and a man who will love me when I don't.
I can see now why it was meant to be that I have been in such a sorry and vulnerable state all year. For a hundred different reasons, least of all, the fact that I have been working so hard to find out what this madness is about. What is so untrue about love. It 'happened' to me, it was my 'lesson', so that I could see that it is your generic ego.
At least five or six so called friends, a cousin, closer family, all the mad bastards who were in my life and just took and took and took, and then at the one time I needed them, they wouldn't give me the time of day. You are all bastards. Frankly. And the most UNATTRACTIVE human beings on earth. And it is all for this one reason. They did not have an opportunity to control. They were just being asked to give. Truly, ugly, MAD, human beings. And I am so glad I have got rid of the whole fucking lot of them. Ego and that particular ego can certainly go to hell, along with them. And along with you.
No, I am not in love with you and I do not actually know if you can heal that. You did it as a child out of fear, sure. Just as I have described in the other ego pieces. But so what. You are 46 years old now. Or maybe you think it's working for you. Ugly fools. Every single one of you. You are all Commodus in Ridley Scott's Gladiator. Pure profane, despotic, fascism, in pretty clothes and good manners. Commodus.
Virulent madness.
You see, the decision my ego made, to romanticise love, was based on seeing and experiencing other peoples' evil and needing to believe in something to stay alive. There is certainly a dehumanisation in need for sure and that is what my ego was. And I dealt with it. Because I have a gift, but because I worked so hard at it, and because I have HUMILITY. The self honesty to know I was doing something wrong.
But your ego (out of the same witnessing and experiencing of other peoples' evil) chose to HATE. It chose to control instead of being controlled. YOUR EGO CHOSE TO CONTROL INSTEAD OF BEING CONTROLLED. It is Terry Malloy before his redemption in On the Waterfront. You are no hero. No sirree. And you never have been. You are of the pig species of human. And this is your chance at redemption. Roland Joffe's The Mission. You. Never me. I was a piece of candy as ego, in comparison to you. That is what your ego is. Don't forget that. And that is why I don't believe and why I am no longer in love with you. Frankly, you may be in ego, you may be ill as a human being therefore, but you disgust me.
As I have said many times before, I wanted a master, not a monster. And every layer of truth that I unconver pushes me farther and farther away. And that is my cleansing and my salvation. If you heal, you heal, if you don't I am free. The truth shall set you free, as they say. For real. I don't care if you my twin soul or not. I am only looking for you to be one kind of man. One kind of human being. A HEALED human being. A REDEEMED human being. A WHOLE human being. In SOUL. I am looking for a man I can RESPECT. A man who loves. A man who will control me when I want it and a man who will love me when I don't.
You can't do either. THAT is ego. That is YOU. My alter ego. Agent Smith in the Matrix. Commodus in Gladiator. Evil. I knew that, I wanted that, but I want it MASTERED. Tamed, mastered and directed. Excite me for fuck's sake. Don't disgust me. Don't be mediocre like all the others. Don't be ordinary. The men, the women I have met and who have bored the fuck out of me in this life with their stupid, transparent, pathetic attempts to control and then their even more mediocre, pathetic and transparent rejection because they can't control. Don't be like them. Don't push me away.
And stop BORING me. Heal. Master that sadist of control, that pseudo adult and GIVE. LOVE. Be you.
Amera Ziganii Rao ©
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Amera Ziganii Rao is a former hard news journalist who is now turning professional with her art forms and indeed, her healing forms, after a long journey of inner searching, self teaching and exploring many layers and areas of both craft and wisdom. She is now working on her first book of philosophy and esoteric thought, and social, cultural and spiritual commentary. She is also showing her first photography collections. And last but most definitely not least, she is building a business to share her Sacred Whore High Priestess Society consciousness and empowering explorations to reach as many people as possible across the world. She is in her forties and lives in London.
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In the meantime, please enjoy this website. I have included many of the subjects I am covering, areas of experience and insight that I will be exploring to the fullest in my book, the courses and all the other work that is to come as a dramatist, novelist and essayist. I also of course, include many of the wise people on this planet, who have come long before me; authors, screen dramatists, playwrights, film makers, artists, and other enlighteners and grand carriers of the wisdom I have found the most helpful on my journey, to find peace and become enlightened. The seemingly impossible journey, in the face of oneself and one’s circumstances. People who have contributed massively to my healing on this mad journey called life, in this insane existence called The Universe. People who have helped to make me as good a carrier of wisdom as I in turn, can be. Thank you.
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