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Writings :: The Letter Series :: Ascension Discourse on Love :: The Ascended Life ll. Amera Ziganii Rao
For me, the most important thing now is to learn how to live in this surreal and fantastical life, of waiting in a 'Count of Monte Cristo' four wall prison, for men. Or, a man as is the visceral hope and new plan, I feel.
I always have two choices; of deciding that I am insane and ridiculous to 'give my life away for men' and walk away and join the minions of people who explore any other subject in the world other than this, or to least continue this, out of curiosity, to see where there is an end. With a kind of brittle endurance.
Of course the other choice is to listen to all that I am told and all that I feel and not feel like the newscaster in Sidney Lumet's Network, heading for a crash and burn or someone shooting me dead on set. And to enjoy what I feel.
And that is the key word. I feel hope. I feel absolutely broken hearted and sad about Cuba, but I feel hope for the first time in a very long time and hope it seems, is the central requirement of life. Hope. Possibility. Hope.
The Lolita power of a Lolita woman. I also feel hopeless, persecuted and prosecuted for all that is male dependency. I also feel the shock that I have been healed and ready to love for over five years now, as I left my own dependency then.
I also feel the two women I have watched and learned from, alongside the thousands of others that I cognitively profile, as personal development speak describes it as; Marilyn Monroe and Katherine Hepburn.
And I see that the resignation in life is to accept that this is the path to love. Becoming those two women with equal confidence - and I mean great depth and sensitivity and over sensitivity in Marilyn to Sacred Whore Monarch levels, as well as the glorious obvious about her - I mean her phenomenal spiritual intelligence, and many other things - alongside Katherine Hepburn's mix of humanity and power all in one in such a graceful but steel like strength. I see and learn from many others, and that includes many many men, but that is a good focus for today.
The resignation in life is to become these two women, despite all that is the patriarchal bombshell of stupidity and ignorance and hate. The resignation in life was accepted a long time ago by me, which is why I have come so far, in my four walls and in my writing and creating voices.
The resignation in life however also has to be about you. Men. That your love dependency, your co-dependency (otherwise known as misogyny or male supremacy or fascism or male hogging selfish takeover bids, suffocating fatherhood, or indeed, sonhood, let's just say) is about Lolita not having any power, so she stays close to home.
I suppose.
Because that is what your ego as men, has been programmed with. That a real girl is a devoted companion. I think.
Anyway, the hope is for this, despite the terrors I now face that I am going to be condemned to these four walls until I create the educational programme for my company which could take a very long time, to be finally overturned by one of you.
That male love dependency, Lolita woman power dependency can be overturned by a male Lemurian, some time this century.
I melodrama. It is a psychological healing that is absolutely possible.
However, Cuba, I was watching an interview with Richard Burton today and another one with Peter Ustinov. I realised why it didn't work for Elizabeth Taylor and Richard Burton. Despite all that I am, I am only a human, even if I am superhuman, as I am told and as I have proved, by entering my soul and not being a love dependent in ego psychosis anymore, sick, anymore. I cannot perform miracles.
In other words, some people, truly, cannot be helped. And they should not be condemned for it. Richard Burton was an extremely profound human being and I am sure I would have loved to know him. But he couldn't land. He couldn't land all the shamanic qualities and passions that he had. He had great wisdom, but he didn't have that ingredient. He drank instead and knew his limits and his limitations and stayed within them from then on I feel.
It's also political. Not sure if that applies to him, but what I see now is that the political and the psychological issues of love dependency are two different and distant things.
What I see with you, that I see differently with New York is what that love dependency is based on.
I feel so far, that his love dependency, his fear of the Lolita woman strength, his hatred, like you, of the Lolita power girl, his vanity about the Lolita power girl, is psychological more than it is political. I feel yours is political. I feel your misogyny is still vastly political, even before you get to the psychological.
With him, I feel he knows enough about right and wrong to know what he should be doing. Like me, before I healed. I knew that men could not be prince charmings and knew they shouldn't be. I knew that no one should be harangued and demanded from, whatever the website could look like to some. I got rid of that completely five years ago.
So, what has been going on for four and a half years then? Exactly.
In other words, the psychology is co-dependency, escapism, the wonderful over sensitivity of loving too much and how it always hurts to say goodbye, even in the morning, sort of thing, and so on.
The politics is about The Sacred Whore Monarch message and the vanity of man with women who shouldn't overshadow them at all and if they do, they should be killed off instead.
Sounds familiar?
Exactly.
So, that is how it feels at the moment. Now, how long I am supposed to now be involved with the new (in this non connecting, healing, distancing way) is anyone's guess and like I say, I am learning how to live with it now. But the reason I can choose to do that, is because somehow, he gives me hope. Hope that it can be done. You do not give me that hope anymore. And I guess I cannot compare the two situations anymore, because you have isolated and punished and financially and care abused me for four years. He has not.
And I fee the reason is political and because it is about Richard Burton too.
Entering soul from chronic level of love dependency is the miracle of life. I have attained and performed that miracle and now believe that New York can do it too.
On the other hand, I am still in agony, still in isolation and frugality and loneliness.
And thinking only about the four and a half years of abuse I have experienced. Not a good place, but only good because I have had the strength to leave it behind, however much it hurts me.
So, that's how I am. New York and I are working as urgently on this as each other. But I am still pottily trying to work through this bizarre life. So, any help as soon as possible would be appreciated. I intend the healing of male love and I intend the release from this Count of Monte Cristo life.
Otherwise, I live as I am, where I am and how I am. For now. And pray that this nightmare will soon be over. And to remember that misogyny and all attacks on my power, are dependency and sickness. And nothing personal and nothing to do with me.
I was ready to love five years ago. I am still waiting for my partner. Now he looks different. And I have hope and joy for the first time in a very long time. But I am still waiting for him to heal. I am still waiting. While I don't wait anymore, at all.
I have however, Cuba, given up hope about you. You are a 'baby' misogynist. Too far back. Too far into the dependency for me to help. Don't ever think that reflects how I feel about you. But sickness has to heal. I am a well human being. I deserve male health. And I think I see an exquisite version in front of me. I think he can heal. I think he can love. I think he can let me be me. I think he can celebrate, finally, my power, alongside my frailty and devotion. I think my dream (and my forced goal in life and my tortuous purpose in relation to attaining a male ally and partner) will finally come true. And I don't think, anymore, for one second, that it will be you.
Joy, but in grief. Life has to include hope. Otherwise, it stops being life at all.
You never came. I believe and HOPE that he will. And while I wait in my tomb of a life, that gives me hope. The tomb is because of you. You don't seem to give a flying fuck about that.
AZR © 2014
Here's that piece again.....work hard, New York. I am already relying on you. AZR
The Lolita Healing. Amera Ziganii Rao
Here we go again. It's okay. He's got four years on you. But this is very painful and painful for me.
When I healed my ego, I accepted male vulnerability. I accepted that there was no man who would love me so that I would feel safe, in the sense that he would be invincible and kind all at the same time, all the time.
Now, when I look at the past four years, it's like I had to pay penance for that. I had to, in a broken hearted way some of the time, yes, but otherwise, in patient, repetitive and tolerant ways, look after male vulnerability. Which is why I became his friend and let him not contact me for four years, while, as it happens, being with wife number two. And Sacred Whoring me again, without my knowledge.
I did it because I had emotionally accepted that all my needs from being a broken and wounded child, would never be met. I had to meet them myself, as he was vulnerable, all men were vulnerable and there was no one man who wouldn't be.
Now, your ego is the opposite. The Lolita ego needs to accept the following; that a woman is not perfect, that no woman is perfect, because women have power.
The Lemurian ego has to accept that people are not perfect, because they HAVE power and not because they don't.
In other words, when I see kindness and invincibility in a man, I am pleasantly surprised, honoured, and happy that I am being given that. I don't demand it. Now, looking back over the website, one could say I have demanded it. I have not. In my ego as was, if I had been in ego, first, I would probably not have made it past the first hurdle and would have killed myself, and second, I would have been blustering and demanding all the way through and would never have taken the trouble to create a whole website to heal the broken and vengeful and dream state ego of a man. As I had my own.
I do not demand kindness or invincibility, by writing to you now for instance.
I just am so happy when I see it.
Now, you have to do the same as men. You have to be happy to see a woman's vulnerability and know you are being given a gift. The rest of the time, to go with male non invincibility, she is invincible. She is power. You have to accept it and more importantly, you have to find it attractive. I had to find male non invincibility attractive. I did and do. It was not easy. I did it.
Now, this is different from dehumanisation. I can slip into that easily. Cuba lives in it. And so do you, in ego. The dehumanisation is that there will be somebody better, somebody else will have that, so might as well keep it as a dream, rather than be disappointed. It is not the person, it is the ego belief that a Lolita woman is always a Lolita woman.
Just as a forceful sexual and confident take control man is always going to be invincible. Do you see? Ego is the biggest disappointment we will ever have. Actually, that's not true. There is not a day gone by in the past four and a half years that has not been bitterly disappointing. I would say that ego to soul is absolute and utter self crucifixion. Absolute. Self crucifixion. Giving up the broken heart, from long, long, long ago. Accepting that no one else is ever going to make up for it. That we all human and frail and certainly not perfect. Women ARE powerful. Men ARE weak and corruptible and selfish. Mmm, didn't know I was going to write those three words, so I'll leave them. But yes, men are not invincible by any means and therefore, women are unfortunately really really powerful and confident in themselves.
That is the Lolita ego healing. Vanity disappointment I think. But understandable. Everyone has programmed you to believe that women need you. That you are there to look after women and that a REAL woman will want you to tell her what to do and guide her throughout her whole day and want you to control her and be with her in every second. It seems. Or, that a real woman will always want you around to help her. That sort of thing. Or, that a real woman will need you to guide her as a father would guide a small child. Probably because you are taught that women are stupid children. For instance. The mind boggles. But whatever it is, better language than that or not, these are all tribe beliefs to keep you in the loop of prison. The reproductive marriage where men and women are stuck together. In other words, slavery. For both.
Exactly. It does not just take wisdom or sacrifice to love. It takes nothing less than pure self crucifixion, to push the spiritual DNA through the roof and change your vibrational being so that ego can stop stopping you from loving. Ego has a dream. That dream is killing you. Kill the ego. Face the killing of the dream that has led you nowhere. And then you find love. All women are Lolita. All women are powerful. The one you like is standing in front of you. No woman is an anomaly. We are all powerful. We are all Lolita.
If you have the courage to face the truth, the courage, because that is what it is, and therefore the will to love and therefore heal, because that ego is sickness, you will face the truth, face yourself and accept that it is not the person but the issue. Then, you face the issue. Yourself and your false dreams.
Then you see me.
And you can decide in fairness. Not, in ego.
And then you can decide if you want to rescue me or not. I am only asking. I am not in ego.
And talking of power, yes, I am THE Disir. The one to reach as many as possible. To share everyone's right to be well, with powerful human rights to call their own. The gnostic path to power. Alchemy & Liberation & Humanity. Ego to soul. Delusion to reality. The inability to love, to the ability to love, by BEING love. The ability to love unconditionally. The ability to face that self crucifixion and be able to love, who you love.
AZR © 2014
The Fall of Man. Amera Ziganii Rao
They killed The Great Mother Universe and made it theirs. They killed us and they tried to use our power. They destroyed the world and made it cold. And then we are expected to carry the can for their sickness. Their sickness, that is a direct result of the killing of You and the killing of me. Their so called selfishness. 'The fall of man' indeed. One day it has to stop. It has. I now accept the coldness of this earth and that I am the perennial whore. Whatever I do, whatever I say, however I behave, and certainly, however I love. I am the whore in their world and from now on, will play the whore and never expect or hope for more. They killed You, The Great Mother Universe and then they killed me. And they blame us for their sickness. Their vanity, their addiction and their complete inability to love. My people are not love dependent even when in the depths of their own psychosis of ego. They believe in love and know there is none. The sickness is the terror and the hopelessness. And not knowing You. Lemurians/men are the sick. They still try to kill You and kill me every day of their lives. They succeed. I am still the whore.
One day it has to stop. It has. I accept the coldness of earth. I accept the madness of Lemuria. I will win and by myself. I am much more than a whore. It's a shame that no man will ever know that. Their shame. Never mine.
AZR © 2014
....but I thank you Cuba for the - should I say, psychic - seven years. It was the most - psychic - love I have ever had as a whore in this world. It was the most love I have ever had in this world, ever, from a man.
Albeit, as an unpaid, psychic whore. You have truly shown me ALL that I am. Not just the SACRED WHORE HIGH SERPENT PRIESTHOOD FEMALE HIEROPHANT AVATAR VALKYRIE WIZARD MONARCH™ & SACRED DISIR. But, just, the whore. The woman to be desired but hated. Forever.
It's been a huge few days. I now get it. So, New York, magnificent as you are too, you are the same, but I am not. So, 'the lad' kind of female is a whore. New terminologies are pouring through. I didn't know. I don't want to be a psychic whore any more. But thank you for the attention. Let me know if you ascend. I'm on the market as a woman now. What market I don't know, but not the romantic kind. I am a whore. I understand now. I don't want it any more. I now see that it is a defunct path that leads nowhere. Other than to more male sickness.
I know there are no daddies any where. All the daddies are sick. And I am well. I accept the coldness of earth. I accept that I am alone. I don't want my heart to be broken any more. I accept the coldness of earth.
AZR © 2014
Grief. Amera Ziganii Rao
Yes, Cuba, I am actually not going to move these pieces over into pages. I was going to do that as you can see, but I am not. I am going to leave this website/blog as it is.
For some reason, the titles of the pieces I presume, the search engines are not featuring even the titles of these pieces, for adult rating reasons. So, not many people are viewing this blog anymore and that is probably in tune with the transition and the new work.
So, I will probably leave this as it is and contribute to this bulletin board for both of you and of course, anyone that is tuning in, and begin work on the new website in my own time. Everything needs time to be taken in anyway, as I begin to read my work myself. And even think about creating the educational programmes and speaking and writing programmes.
Other than that, I feel we are all going through grief now and dying to the old as we anticipate and experience the new. Let's all look after each other. We are a soul cluster. And I am sure, a very special one.
New York, I feel you. I am grieving too and I am feeling you too. Just lonely. For life, for you and for all that I have lost. Working and taking it all in. Walking tall as the whore now though. The whore is The Circus. The Circus is The Temple. The Temple is The Tree of Life. The Tree of Life is the real world. The real world is me. The real world could be you too.
AZR © 2014
Cinderella. Amera Ziganii Rao
Well. Well, New York and of course Cuba in your ongoing Ascension training, if you intend to continue with it, which I am sure you will and anyone else who has been following my work.
Why do men allow their wives or 'wives' to work, while not allowing their dollybirds? Is that the best way of asking it? I don't know.
I do know why men don't allow the dollybird to work. Because she is more than him. She is also not only more than him intellectually, - I seem to have been relegated to 'posh tottie' rather than any other, because I have a mind as well as looks - she is more than him spiritually.
Now, this wouldn't matter if it were not for 'the tribe'.
I feel and believe now, after three years of writing about and delivering about and researching about and communing with The Universe, Great Mother Universe about this subject, that men and all Lemurians are programmed to kill High Serpent Amazonian Priesthood™.
I am High Serpent Amazonian Priesthood™
I am not allowed. I think the unconscious of humans is as simple as that. It's not sexual, it's not about power, it's not about merging the mind and the pussy, it's not about any of these things, it's not even about tottie prejudice from silly men. It's about the will to kill High Serpent Amazonian Priesthood™ and in fact, all levels of Amazonian Priesthood.
Your forefathers wiped me out. The world thrives on male 'power' because mine was killed. My next research and communing is to find out the details and the 'proof' - I am a Clair Cognisant. Either feel my truth, or don't - about this truth. I already know it is the truth.
It has been my life. No one wants me to speak, no one wants me to work and no one wants me at the table. That is not personal in any way, shape or form. That is about a people, being POLITICALLY refused power. My people. Atlantis.
Read the blog. I shall be slowly looking at pieces and maybe directing you there. I am on my own purely business related path now and it's fucking great. I no longer have to care. The world is cold and so are men and so are Lemurians. So, I have accepted. I am sure Robert Downey Jr accepted the same thing. Earth is cold. So what's the hurry.
But keep reading. The answers will come.
Meanwhile, I never have to care about the fact that no one cares about how I live. I know why. I am High Serpent Amazonian Priesthood™. I am not supposed to exist. And if I have the audacity to do so, like all oppressed and hated peoples, I have to do it alone. With active attempts to kill me, all my life. Got it. Done. Understood. Watch me rise. Watch me win.
Tara for now.
AZR © 2014
For I am the first and the last. I am the honoured one and the scorned one. I am the whore and the holy one. I am the wife and the virgin. I am (the mother) and the daughter. I am the members of my Mother.
Thunder. The Gnostic Gospels
Go tell it on the mountain. Over the hills and everywhere. Go tell it on the mountain. Set my people free.
Bob Marley
Cinderella Pt ll. Amera Ziganii Rao
High Serpent Amazonian Priesthood™
And remember this when you stay in your method of isolation and psychic hijacking or communication. It is loneliness that kills. You are programmed to kill women like me through enforcing loneliness. This world is a very sinister place, however child like that sounds. You cannot love what you will not take responsibility for.
Loving me takes great courage and great moral courage and great spiritual courage. I am The Disir. I am the members of my Mother. They would have me dead. You try your best to carry out their orders. Don't. As I read recently, words to the effect of, when you accept who you are, you are invincible. You punish and isolate and hate the non slave because she does not serve the Patriarchal Toilet Tribe agenda. You are attracted to her for the very same reason. Accept who you are. Cowardly tribe sons. People still living in the lower mind. And the outer heart, however sensitive they appear to be. The 'not feeling'. For you, for Lemurians, for Dark Lemurians, it is living on the furthest edges of your mind (the lowest) and the furthest edges of your heart (cruelty and coldness and indeed, self hatred).
You block yourselves to prevent 'rebelling' against the tribe. The tribe is evil. You are blocking yourself from REFORMING the tribe (as the beloved sons, you should be leading the army) because.......
you have no courage, nor moral righteousness. You kill High Priestesses. You ignore our existence and fantasise about us in your private thoughts. And hold us ransom through your attention. You are the beloved sons, primed especially to perform this task.
You didn't know. Now you do.
You find the courage at the same time you enter soul. You find your moral righteousness to speak for right, at the same time as you enter soul. You enter the peace of your heart and the exit from the homicidal violence against women - the same holy women - at the same time you enter soul.
Soul is the inner heart and the higher mind. True heart and true mind. Anything else is mediocre at best and violent and Hitler like at worst. In a Dark Lemurian especially.
Even I was stupid once. I had to ascend into soul. I ascended through becoming love. There is no other way. The sincerity to want to love is admirable, for sure. The will to love though is a fuck of a lot more.
You didn't know. Now you do. Oh, and I am still lonely. But will never be killed. I survived seven straight years. I can survive anything. But I no longer forgive. There's no point. It leads nowhere.
Oh, and if we take this into the this life psychological element, it's the same. You didn't stand up for the women against your father. Or fathers, or men or society. You never do. Not really. Loving for a man it seems therefore, unless he is an Atlantean, is the greatest level of redemption possible. The Divine forgiveness of pure, amoral, self serving evil. Lolita indeed. Your angels, that you defile and kill through loneliness.
Do you not think the tribe knows that? We are ALL born slaves. I just found out a fuck of a lot sooner. Tortoise and hare. I am not the slave. Never have been. Never will be.
You didn't know. Now you do.
AZR © 2014
...which is why The Sacred Whore and The Tribe Madonna is only about one thing. Fascism. Fascism as a cruel and tyrannical brick wall of torture. Fascism is also very clearly cowardice. Misogyny is therefore cowardice. Men are therefore complete cowards against their fathers and mothers and anyone else and beat women out of that cowardice and out of their own self shame. Fascism is the ultimate evil on this cold earth. Fascists are cowards. All Lemurians are fascists. All Lemurians, before soul, are therefore, cowards. Which is the real truth behind the 'men are afraid of female power' crap. Of course you are. You have none of your own. Fascism is the ultimate weakness in a person. The abuse of power gene of weak spirit. Slaves before the tribe and only 'loving' the ones who can do it too. High Serpent Amazonian Priesthood™ are condemned and hated as mistresses, 'friends' and whores, because High Serpent Amazonian Priesthood™ are never slaves. To the TRIBE. Let alone, you. So for you, the choice is this. Fascism, or love. Dishonest cowardice and self delusion. Or moral integrity and taking responsibility for who you love and what you like to do. Sex. Sex, sex, sex and sex. Courage and penance come first. For you, it's called love.
AZR © 2014
New Love. Amera Ziganii Rao
Well, for me, I find all this absolute agony. I am listening to you New York. I can see how you centre yourself in your work so completely. That is a very spiritual process and therefore I should see you as new and I should see you as different. I will try.
But to look back on 32 years of being 'the other woman'/the mistress/the 'friend'/the unwanted lad whore whatever is to say the least, very traumatic.
Of course I have covered many things to do with the abuse in marriage. The whys, the hows, and the like. I now am turning to at least in my mind, the abuse of 32 years of being the other. And how my life has been in danger since the beginning.
I am thinking of Marilyn Monroe and I presume, Jean Harlow, who presumably died for something similar. And I am thinking that my self abnegation and embarrassment at my life are over. I am never going to doubt myself again. I am in shock.
I am also in terror. Am I supposed to believe and do another seven years of isolation, being ignored and never seen, all for the love of a man?
Just remember this; it is not just the fear of the tribe. It is the hatred of a woman's NON WOMB, CREATION rights. Why, I don't know anymore and I really don't give a fuck anymore. Presumably it's to do with all things that are true spirituality and true intellect and the necessity for High Serpent Amazonian Priesthood slavery, so that the rule of men can continue, over The Great Mother Universe as well as over the rest of the world (female priesthood is GNOSTIC and therefore dangerous to the ruling group. The reason why sex is taboo is the same reason. Sexual power is the greatest spiritual power of self empowerment in the world and possibly, in the The Universe on a human energy level). But who cares. You have to care now. Not me.
And I am now supposed to look at Cuba and come to terms with seven years of abuse - where I asked a man for help (human contact, let alone anything else) for the first time in my life - and now leave him behind, because he is not you.
Agony. The whole thing. Will a man ever make me see anything else? I don't know.
And how can I care, so I no longer care less? I don't know.
I am now becoming a full time revolutionary though and I knew this would be the worst part. Because to focus into the work would take facing all the truths. And the truths are just too foul to see. Especially as I am effectively still in Auschwitz - no, that is not an exaggeration, not anymore - and still waiting for a man to not hate my non womb creation rights, and still waiting for a man to stand up to the disgusting evil tribe and demand that I have a place in life too. A throne.
Another great day in paradise. I am watching. Just about.
AZR © 2014
....sigh, yawn. No, I am not walking away. I am just saying that to enter male madness, because that is what dependency is per se, and the Lemurian variety, super mad, takes some getting used to again and new decisions as to how to approach it. I've just done four years of obsessional and forceful belief that searching for the answers would work. It didn't. Cuba is more insane than ever.
Keep reading. And I have begun to read my work. It's awesome. I am awesome.
I have a question for you. Is my work so crap that you think I am just doing it as a hobby or something? Is that what men think of my work? Do you think you are entering semi retirement or something and you want your little girl with you? What is it? You give me the answers too. You have after all, been working with you your whole life. Or is it that you dream as men of a little girl with no brains all your life, and then think you have found her, because she is at the beginning of her career and you can take it away or something?
Shame yourself. Ask the questions. What is it? In Islam, the Koran talks of 're-juvenating nymphs in paradise'. Who do you think they are? The Atlanteans. So, is it likely that Lemurian soldiers were with re-juvenating nymphs? And then this became a myth of the after life?
One could go on and on. And oh yes, then another day in the bowels of your hell has passed again. More mistress torture without contact.
You get my drift. That should be enough for now. I'm building soldier stamina currently. And dreaming of my new dream. A home in Docklands, from my own PROFESSIONAL WORK earnings.
AZR © 2014
The first thing to remember is this. I am a Sexual Goddess. I am a trophy to men. That's it. The first thing to remember. Sexual trophies work.
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Sexual trophies are also women. Women are also human beings with the right to achieve. Human beings with the right to achieve, with the right to a loving partner or nothing at all.
Maybe you really didn't know that. Now you do.
It is possible to have sex and vocation too. You do it, or do you. Oh, right. You thought you'd work and raise a family, and then have the sex. With your own personal Scheherazade. Oh, where I have heard that before?
I am getting over the trauma of not having had a life for 32 years because of insane men like you. And you are....insane. Fuck men. Fuck my life. Fuck you.
And so on. That is how you make me feel. Have some shame. Have a heart.
But I know who you are now. Another one of them. Sick. You can heal. Work hard. You've got a lot to do and a long way to go.
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The shortcut however is very simple. Enlightenment - the state I fully reached as a state of emotional sanity and spiritual superhuman five years ago - is ego's greatest disappointment, as one of my teachers, Wayne Dyer, says. Your ego's greatest disappointment is me working. Keep facing that one issue and know there is no way out and you will ascend. He never made it. You might. I accept that a sexual trophy has to have vocation too. Repeat. Ascend.
Good luck. That is truly all you need. You know how to face yourself. I know you do. Face that and you will ascend. Very simple. Lolita has power. Sob. Lolita needs to achieve too. Sob. Ascend. Sob.
Ascending is being in the EMOTIONAL state of not fearing loss as a state of terror, vengeance and hesitation to act. Ascending is being present and open and CONSIDERATE. Selfish love to unselfish love = pure love. Pure love = true love. True love is the only way you get me. My love has been true for five years. I am still waiting.
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Atlantean Mastery. Amera Ziganii Rao
Lolita dependency is punishing and refusing to love,
because you are terrified the person won’t
be available. The psychological route of it is this; someone was not available.
Your parent, your first carer, someone who let you down. In your deepest
memory. This is also something that has happened a lot. Early on, to reinforce.
To love truly is to take RESPONSIBILITY for that wound. To
make it yours. So, the knee jerk reaction, in the CONSCIOUS mind, the mind
constantly watching oneself, the morally responsible and HIGH INTELLIGENT mind,
is to be possessive, be a fascist, be every form of abuse of power, be
conditional love. The considered reaction (which, is you do more and more,
eventually becomes habit, which eventually becomes your DNA matter of change of
being, ie, automatic, like learning any new skill) is to stop yourself,
painstakingly, remember that this person is not that person who was not
available or who let you down and then take a breath, centre into yourself and
speak from your truth, which will not be possessiveness, etc, but FRIENDSHIP,
which you can show to a FRIEND.
True love is to love the love of your life with friendship.
OBJECTIVE love. Now, one could argue that I have not always shown friendship to
Cuba. That would be inaccurate. Especially as failure was the only end we were
working towards. It didn’t matter how I said it, up to now. It’s you now and
not him.
What a painful way to live, communicating with men like
this.
Torturer cowards who are sick.
Anyway, objective love hurts. Love hurts because it should
bloody well hurt. Ego tells us that love is the one area we should be allowed
to just be. No, it is not. No, it is not. That is a tribe run world with
Lemurian bullshit rules.
An Atlantean world is a world of wisdom, love, mastery and
love genius and sexual genius. Using the same disciplines that we use everywhere,
for love too. Everything has to be controlled, in the same self mastery way as
anywhere else. Co-dependency, the thing we all want to sink back into, even
when in soul, is lazy love.
This is adult love. True love is adult love. No
co-dependency and a great deal of (non sexual) pain.
Part of the reason I continue this shit for instance, is
because it just adds to my mastery. I am a love master. I know how to love. And
increasingly do, every day. That should be your aim too. You have just begun. And
if that sounds rude, it should do. You appal me. And break my heart.
Objectively though, you are allowed. Atlanteans are
emotional masters and emotional heavyweights. We do spiritual intellect. We do
wisdom as a culture of being. I just happen to be very advanced at it. It is my
gift. And my 17 years work, alongside your success in your career. My
professional and personal gift. I am a High Priestess. That is what we do. We
don’t just fuck.
I am an emotional Samurai. To love truly is be an emotional
Samurai, the same way you are at work. You think love is a place you don’t have
to work. That is ego and the ignorance that destroys this world every day.
So, yes, I won’t always be available for sure. Guess what.
Neither will you. What I will not be is the person who fucked you up. I know
how to love. I know intimacy. I know how to connect and share. That person did not.
At the same time, you have to grieve that no one ever in
your whole life will ever be available in the way you want them to be. And you
have to believe that. That is ego to soul. Believing your worst nightmare. And then
resurrecting with the DNA shift of being, that changes your vibrational self
into a higher and more powerful and more LOVING self, having accepted that that
was a wound that will never heal so must be let go of, and then starting again.
And being REASONABLE, in love.
Rationally, you are embarrassed that you don’t want a woman
to work, because you are so in love with her. Emotionally you agree with it.
Emotion is sick, when unreasonable to that extraordinary level. Like the female
harridan that men like you love to focus so much on. She was the unhealed me. I
think my self mastery speaks for itself. That was hard earned. Really, hard
earned. Long before I even met Cuba. I had to be ready. I was.
Atlanteans are who we say we are. And I am just bloody good
at it. It’s my JOB. My ARTFORM. And my CALLING.
I am High Serpent Amazonian Priesthood™. I fuck and I work.
Like you. Is that straightforward enough?
In other words, my new friend, untrue love is addictive love. Refusing to love because you are afraid that the person won't be available for you, is addiction. Addiction is not facing pain. Not facing pain is not remembering where the wound came from. And not having the will to release it. Misogyny through to Lolita fantasisising through to all of it. Just unhealed, ego addiction. All addiction can be healed. All addiction is just sickness. Your love is sick. It can heal. And has NOTHING to do with my careers. And everything to do with your past. You were told you could own women. You cannot. It was a lie. You were told that women are stupid. No, we bloody well are not. You were told that you are allowed to be vain and supremacist over women. No, you bloody well cannot. Love hurts you. It bloody well should.
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No, I'm sorry, love of my life, there is another. Another love of my life. You and I, it seems are going to have to face the truth that The Twin Soul is left. For me, The Twin Flame is found. However long and different the journey may be. And you have your special friend. She will be your comfort now. And me, as your psychic twin soul. Nothing more. It became nothing more.
And you will never be able to stand up to the tribe. Your liberation has just begun. Of that I am proud.
New friend means new love of my life. I don't intend to have any more. I hope you are listening, new love of my life. I'm not window shopping.
But men are a theoretical hobby now. I only attract addictive misogynistic Lolita mad men. Docklands, here I come.
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The ‘Love’ Contract. Amera Ziganii Rao
Thought you’d like to see what I wrote tonight for myself. My own re-programming. Once alchemy becomes a way of life, the alchemist works hard to keep change accurate....
‘Love’. A new life with a ‘friend’. Married and a Lothario, Whore and Madonna, Lolita, Career Killing, Sex and Shame Addict and Tribe Coward. So, no change there. So, austerity and discipline and work – pain and disability allowing, especially as I am a grateful ward of the state, so I actually get a chance to look after myself - to get to Docklands with these three things; the education company, the writing and philosophy and the photography as art. Docklands or New York. I’m the whore again. Without the Madonna. I don’t get dinner or contact or a life of any kind from him yet. But he’s in love with me. 2014-2015 done. Regroup this time next year. He has to ascend. Ascension is beyond a miracle. The last one I saw was mine. Miracle and ascension. But he’s in love with me. That’s nice.
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Master Quotes
Kindness is a language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see. ~ Mark Twain
Maybe I can't accomplish all my dreams in life, but I'm sure going to try. Life Tricks
I will destroy all of my psychosocial fears. Rebelling Wage Slave
“That’s the most important part of the job. Knowing when to come down hard and when to go easy.” Zadie Smith. The Paris Review
"I don't think of all the misery but of the beauty that still remains." Anne Frank
At 15 my heart was set on learning; at 30 I stood firm; at 40 I had no more doubts; at 50 I knew the mandate of heaven; The book salesman should be honored because he brings to our attention, as a rule, the very books we need most and neglect most.. Confucius
Begin at the beginning and go on till you come to the end: then stop. - Lewis Carroll
I can be around a million people, but without you I would still feel alone. Love and Life
One must pay dearly for immortality; one has to die several times while still alive. Friedrich Nietzsche
It's hard to trust people these days. So I just keep to myself. Quote Bird
Never forget to give attention to those who don't ask for it. The Golden Mirror
With money in your pocket you are wise, you are handsome (beautiful), & you sing well too. Jewish Proverb
The love that lasts longest is the love that is never returned. W. Somerset Maugham
A ruling class of capitalist men owns 99% of all land. The only way for women to be liberated is through all out revolution. Simone de Beauvoir
Success isn't how far you got, but the distance you traveled from where you started. Greek Proverb
Language must be used to agitate the masses. Albert Camus
Truth in philosophy means that concept and external reality correspond. Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel
Miracles happen when you give more attention to your desires than you do your fears. Lorane Gordon
Reparations are a temporary solution to a permanent problem; revolution is the only logical course of action. Malcolm X
More American women are playing sports than ever before – so why is coverage of women's sports actually declining? The Daily Beast
"Striving for excellence motivates you; striving for perfection is demoralizing." -Harriet Braiker
Being someone's first love is great, but being someone's last love is beyond perfect. Women Can Do It All
If you have an important point to make, don't try to be subtle or clever. Use a pile driver. W. Churchill
“I do believe we're all connected.” Thank you everyone. Roy Bennett
The New Journey. Amera Ziganii Rao
No, New York. On the contrary. Very taken and very much focused on you and very much grieving Cuba.
At the same time, looking at the carnage that is my life. Frankly, I am in a panic, so just learning how to deal with that. The panic of hopelessness and resignation about failure and beginning again. For instance, I live with a man called Rumpelstiltskin whose sole purpose in life is to sound like the M1 above, through paper ceilings, especially donated by my housing destiny for now and so on. A man who follows me around from room to room, especially born with the purpose of torturing me to death. A man, cosmically hired by my twin soul, to kill me off. It didn't work, but it is inhumanely tedious. You cannot even imagine. I'm here because I loved a man. This is my punishment. By a Lemurian world of madness. And of course the fascism and madness of the 'whore and Madonna' madness.
And that is just one of the many challenges in my life. So, that, alongside grieving 7 years of being involved in a marriage which wasn't even a marriage, I ain't feeling too good or too trusting or too anything but resigned, melancholy and sad. About men. I have no idea what comes next. So I can only say yes and thank you. And if I felt confident about wishing, I would wish, but I don't feel confident, so I won't. But I will say yes and thank you.
No, I'm sorry, love of my life, there is another. Another love of my life. You and I, it seems are going to have to face the truth that The Twin Soul is left. For me, The Twin Flame is found. However long and different the journey may be. And you have your special friend. She will be your comfort now. And me, as your psychic twin soul. Nothing more. It became nothing more.
And you will never be able to stand up to the tribe. Your liberation has just begun. Of that I am proud.
New friend means new love of my life. I don't intend to have any more. I hope you are listening, new love of my life. I'm not window shopping.
But men are a theoretical hobby now. I only attract addictive misogynistic Lolita mad men. Docklands, here I come.
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The ‘Love’ Contract. Amera Ziganii Rao
Thought you’d like to see what I wrote tonight for myself. My own re-programming. Once alchemy becomes a way of life, the alchemist works hard to keep change accurate....
‘Love’. A new life with a ‘friend’. Married and a Lothario, Whore and Madonna, Lolita, Career Killing, Sex and Shame Addict and Tribe Coward. So, no change there. So, austerity and discipline and work – pain and disability allowing, especially as I am a grateful ward of the state, so I actually get a chance to look after myself - to get to Docklands with these three things; the education company, the writing and philosophy and the photography as art. Docklands or New York. I’m the whore again. Without the Madonna. I don’t get dinner or contact or a life of any kind from him yet. But he’s in love with me. 2014-2015 done. Regroup this time next year. He has to ascend. Ascension is beyond a miracle. The last one I saw was mine. Miracle and ascension. But he’s in love with me. That’s nice.
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Master Quotes
Kindness is a language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see. ~ Mark Twain
Maybe I can't accomplish all my dreams in life, but I'm sure going to try. Life Tricks
I will destroy all of my psychosocial fears. Rebelling Wage Slave
“That’s the most important part of the job. Knowing when to come down hard and when to go easy.” Zadie Smith. The Paris Review
"I don't think of all the misery but of the beauty that still remains." Anne Frank
At 15 my heart was set on learning; at 30 I stood firm; at 40 I had no more doubts; at 50 I knew the mandate of heaven; The book salesman should be honored because he brings to our attention, as a rule, the very books we need most and neglect most.. Confucius
Begin at the beginning and go on till you come to the end: then stop. - Lewis Carroll
I can be around a million people, but without you I would still feel alone. Love and Life
One must pay dearly for immortality; one has to die several times while still alive. Friedrich Nietzsche
It's hard to trust people these days. So I just keep to myself. Quote Bird
Never forget to give attention to those who don't ask for it. The Golden Mirror
With money in your pocket you are wise, you are handsome (beautiful), & you sing well too. Jewish Proverb
The love that lasts longest is the love that is never returned. W. Somerset Maugham
A ruling class of capitalist men owns 99% of all land. The only way for women to be liberated is through all out revolution. Simone de Beauvoir
Success isn't how far you got, but the distance you traveled from where you started. Greek Proverb
Language must be used to agitate the masses. Albert Camus
Truth in philosophy means that concept and external reality correspond. Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel
Miracles happen when you give more attention to your desires than you do your fears. Lorane Gordon
Reparations are a temporary solution to a permanent problem; revolution is the only logical course of action. Malcolm X
More American women are playing sports than ever before – so why is coverage of women's sports actually declining? The Daily Beast
"Striving for excellence motivates you; striving for perfection is demoralizing." -Harriet Braiker
Being someone's first love is great, but being someone's last love is beyond perfect. Women Can Do It All
If you have an important point to make, don't try to be subtle or clever. Use a pile driver. W. Churchill
“I do believe we're all connected.” Thank you everyone. Roy Bennett
The New Journey. Amera Ziganii Rao
No, New York. On the contrary. Very taken and very much focused on you and very much grieving Cuba.
At the same time, looking at the carnage that is my life. Frankly, I am in a panic, so just learning how to deal with that. The panic of hopelessness and resignation about failure and beginning again. For instance, I live with a man called Rumpelstiltskin whose sole purpose in life is to sound like the M1 above, through paper ceilings, especially donated by my housing destiny for now and so on. A man who follows me around from room to room, especially born with the purpose of torturing me to death. A man, cosmically hired by my twin soul, to kill me off. It didn't work, but it is inhumanely tedious. You cannot even imagine. I'm here because I loved a man. This is my punishment. By a Lemurian world of madness. And of course the fascism and madness of the 'whore and Madonna' madness.
And that is just one of the many challenges in my life. So, that, alongside grieving 7 years of being involved in a marriage which wasn't even a marriage, I ain't feeling too good or too trusting or too anything but resigned, melancholy and sad. About men. I have no idea what comes next. So I can only say yes and thank you. And if I felt confident about wishing, I would wish, but I don't feel confident, so I won't. But I will say yes and thank you.
As for my life, I have landed after four years with a fantastic writing and philosophy voice and everything else, while having to face terrible truths about life, and indeed, my life, so, just taking that in and while you are there for friendship, it is a very alone (I wish - Rumpelstiltskin) and very lonely life now. I am sad. But very committed to going forward now in my careers and seeing what happens with everything else. I gave my all and ended up with Rumpelstiltskin. New strategies are needed for life. These ones didn't work. Surely, like anyone else on earth, I can only rely on my careers. If anything else, surely it comes to the door. Until then, it is work. And about time, after a 32 year brick wall of Patriarchal Fascism, isolation and hatred and confusion. So, really sad but really free. Free at last to be my work. Free at least, to pursue greatness. Love will come when it comes.
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Female Career, Male Dependency. Amera Ziganii Rao
Please don't. Not after four years of abuse about this subject from my twin soul. It is your dependency. Focus on it this way. Women are not mothers. Women are women, and mothers too. Men are not fathers. Men are men and then fathers too. There is no difference. The rest is slavery under a fascist system of marriage, whoredom and the rest. Friendships, sisters, aunts, secretaries, assistants, daughters. These are other words for mother, when a man looks at a woman. Dependency in a man leads to the fascism of conditional love. If you don't give me this, I won't give you that. That is dependency. Refusing to love, unless you are loved in a particular way. That still doesn't make you feel loved. That still doesn't make you loved. Because it is dependency, emotional sickness and the old world. You enforce that on a woman, and then you still have fear of loss. That's why. Because you know it is wrong. Do not underestimate the power of ego. You underestimate that and you lose. Ego is very intelligent. The more intelligent the soul, the more intelligent the ego. Ego will give you a thousand reasons, not to love. Soul gives you none.
Meanwhile, I will try to remember that you are new. And after all that I have been through in a patriarchy ridden life, I yearn for nothing less than pure indulgence, support and friendship from a man now. Especially an omnipotent man. That is why we are matched. I can keep growing slowly and alone, sure. We most certainly know that. But your splinter is that you want to do that too. I mean, give me pure indulgence, support and friendship. FATHERHOOD. You just want me as a mother to you too. At the cost of everything I do. That is the splinter. One of those is well and one of those is ill. And the psychosis kills me. Your psychosis is sabotaging my career. Men do not have to beat women for one second, to kill them dead. It happens every nano second, everywhere. Germaine Greer wrote 'The Obstacle Race'. Clearly, I focus like a mother on a person, like no one else. I want my career to be honoured in the same way. As I honour yours. You do this to me and I start resenting yours. Very simple. I want equality. I want justice. I want a well man. I want love. I want SUPPORT and kindness for my careers. I am an abuse survivor. I demand the best.
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Fear of loss. Fear of addiction. Emotional sickness as the visceral vehicle of these fears as an unconscious reaction to the person, despite all your best intentions. Ego is belief. Feels like emotion for sure, if one can put it that way. But the anger, need, greed and fear of ego is from beliefs. Ummm, so, fear of loss for you could be, the belief that a powerful woman, in other words, any woman standing in her own power and not losing herself or holding herself back to make you feel better about yourself or something, won't be kind enough to you or there enough for you or something like that. Or quite frankly, without knowing them, your mother or your father or both. It's also just need. The more we are in love, the more we fear loss. Of course. So, need + vulnerability + taking responsibility for that by SHARING that fear + taking responsibility for HAVING that fear = love. Intimacy. We are all afraid, we are all terrified of loss. But as with all feelings, if you acknowledge it and know that it is allowed and that you are WILLING to take responsibility for the PAIN to control it, or try to control it, then it's okay. Projection is hiding that truth and then putting someone down, so they feel bad about themselves or are obsessed with your approval because you never give it or so on, the many thousands of ways Lemurians seem to do it and the thousands of ways I have seen it done to me. Love takes responsibility. Love takes healing. You want to help. You don't want to lose me. You don't want me to do this, do that, do this, do that. Love is not addiction. Love is objective self beating withdrawal love as well as the other. The agony and the ecstasy. Not just in the sex. And not in co-dependency fights of possessiveness or shame about the truth of the world even and being 'weird' or too advanced or anything. And why? Because those are the reasons you found me and wanted me. Dependency is blaming for the very reasons you wanted. I like male vulnerability now. I didn't in ego. I don't envy male power. I did in ego. I love female power. I had no appreciation for it in ego. I am proud of my spiritual and cultural roots, however fantastical they sound. I would have had no courage to even speak about it. In ego.
Need is not love. Fear is need. Fear is not love. Sharing the fears is. Sharing is. Sharing, and taking responsibility. And honouring motherhood for what it really is, and not slavery by a strange deification. Worshipping your IDEA of womanhood. I did the same with men. In ego. That image is about as tarnished as it could be now of course, in soul, five years after my final healing out of ego - there are many layers of the love ego as there are for any ego, if you like, all in the same ego of the same person - but I could not even have attempted what I did with my twin soul, if I had been in ego. I would still have been worshipping the invincible, generous father. All I want is a friend. A friend who can also be a father. A friend who wants me to achieve, as I want him to achieve. I thought that was a man. Turned out that it is the holy grail. Love.
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Mother Dependency. Amera Ziganii Rao
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NATURAL BORN MYSTIC™ :: THE TRUE LOVE JOURNEY :: THE POLITICS OF RAPE :: THE RETURN TO ATLANTIS :: THE RETURN TO LEMURIA :: THE RETURN :: ALCHEMY & LIBERATION & HUMANITY™ :: :: ::
Do you still hate men? No, but men still hate me. Mother Dependency. The Killer Sickness of The World.
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So, just trying to work out now, how my psycho analytical skills are going to be used this time. The writer and commentator and transformer and inspirer I can do. The healer I hate. If pre-courtship by an Atlantean is really what I have had to go through and what I am being asked to go through again, then that is the story. Every other woman and man around the world must feel the same as me and that is who a major part of my work is for.
It clearly is for men too. So, just trying to work through now, how to live this next nightmare. The healing apparently of your soul now, that the last one didn't work, even though he is welcome always to continue too. And I am going to try and see it as a theory of miraculous healing now, to be the material for my formula for healing father dependency, which is my first part of the 17 years I have lived as a High Initiate. The only way I can cope with the injustice of having healed father dependency as a psychosis, completely, five years ago and then having to nurse mother dependency in my twin soul, like a political prisoner of conscience, for the past four.
I know dependency. My worry is that you don't. Again. Maybe you do. It is Mother Dependency for Lemurians and Father Dependency for Atlanteans. Dependency is sickness. We all live a formula until we heal that psychosis. I know yours. It is the generic and typical Mother Dependency. That's good news. It is always gratifying in sickness to know that the disease is recognisable. Your job though, your first job, if you choose, that is, is to face the disease of the sickness. At the moment you think it is all legitimate. It is not. Face that truth and you may ascend. Or, you may have just begun. I have no attachment to either option. I cannot have attachment to anything until I see a well man. A man who is 'willing to love' is a well man. A man who wants something more than a mother looking after his every needs in every moment, to the sacrifice of her own right to pursue wholeness, is more than a well man. He IS The Holy Grail. For me. I now face the absolute possibility that I may never reach The Holy Grail. No man may ever heal. I accept it. I will not live in delusional hope anymore. But just, tentative and earth based hope. And that means a different emotion of approach. Nonchalence on a bad day. Will to connect on a good day. And that's it. Can't do anymore. Unless I see a well man. A miracle. To match my own. Me.
NATURAL BORN MYSTIC™ :: THE TRUE LOVE JOURNEY :: THE POLITICS OF RAPE AND THE POLITICS OF LOVE ::
NATURAL BORN MYSTIC™ :: THE TRUE LOVE JOURNEY :: THE POLITICS OF RAPE :: THE RETURN TO ATLANTIS :: THE RETURN TO LEMURIA :: THE RETURN :: ALCHEMY & LIBERATION & HUMANITY™ :: :: ::
Do you still hate men? No, but men still hate me. Mother Dependency. The Killer Sickness of The World.
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And I have the best title for the first book now (not the book of some of the blog).
Natural Born Mystic :: Reluctant Prophet
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And we know why. If we lived in a Temple Society, I would not have had Cinderella abuse for at least 42 years of my 49. I hate being a healer of men. I hate my gifts in this world. I hate this sick world. That's my new journey. To celebrate and 'Eminem' that. Alone of course, in relation to men.
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Self Discovery and Discovery. Amera Ziganii Rao
So. Where are we? Well, there is a great deal of psychic conversation and relating and communication going on, with both of you in obviously different ways. I am tempted to just leave it like that for now, as I don't think we need confirmation as much as Cuba and I did in the beginning and because it is all very emotional and hard to keep up with but very welcome.
I am landing after four years of delivering the subject matter I was clearly born to write, speak and philosophise and Hierophant about. Love and Power. I am essentially a Love Prophet type, a Power Prophet type, a Human Rights Leader in the making. Self actualisation and human rights. Including the right to have sex, which is obviously more universal than my own kind of people but 'my' kind of people in your kind of people too. The connecting factor. The love of love to go with the love of love, if you see what I mean.
Yesterday I began my work. Doing well as you can see. I am trying to be business like with you New York, as it seems that love and all that could be relationship, has to be done that way. Not least, because of the unique insanity of the psychic communication, which I can only at this point, see as real, because everything with Cuba has been real.
I am still completely taken and still completely grieving all that I am leaving behind. And you are too in your way with your various attachments. I can see that.
I also don't want to be babyish about this, even though as profound as before, so clearly, am winging it, as one has to I suppose. It's quite nice though, because after all that I have been through, I see no subtlety left in love or relationship, no, 'oh, it's best to wait for a man to make the move' kind of thing or any of that coyness. Long over that stuff. Don't believe in any of it. Never seen it. But we know why now so trying to get my head around the fact that I have been a whore, forced outside the society of norm, because I neither was attached to having children - I could have gone either way - nor attached to slavery. Sorry, formal mothering to a man. The Tribe Marriage/Relationship.
I am therefore in a new place myself, while the non subtleties of the subtleties work themselves out. Complete eradication of anything that is co-dependency. I had already reached a belligerently masterful state of not needing anyone before I met Cuba. Other than the love of a man. Work (+ The Universe) and romance were my two drivers always. But now it can only be one (+ one). I cannot depend on relationship or men or love or romance any more. Even though I am actually filled with hope for the first time in four years.
I've got to be grown up. So, I release all desire or (advanced) dependency or will or wish or relying or expecting or anything to do with you New York. You tell me what you want. And when and if. Which is probably the same as any 'courtship' should be, but it's not nice or fun or joyful in any way. I am too lonely and too oppressed by my present life of solitude and discomfort for that. And of course, I am grieving too, so that's no fun either.
I now intend to need no one at all, in the whole world. I intend to love without need. It's not as if I have not had the training.
None of that sounds as sinister as it may sound to you. I am head over heels, but I will not be hurt by a non conscious human being again. And a man, a Lemurian becoming conscious, entering soul, ridding himself of 'the mortal husk' of the resin (mine was a dark resin cloud that left my body) is the spiritual truth, the emotional healing truth of true love. The Holy Grail when two people can do it together. Be universal and unconditional love. Other people probably call that commitment. It is. Just the esoteric truth of it.
So, that aside, and you have noticed that I just switch off now when you go into doubt and anything resembling misogyny or resistance to being with a woman with such a calling, and I have noticed that you appreciate that, that aside, I am in a new journey of self discovery. As I talk to you.
I am essentially a freedom fighter I guess. While you and every other alpha male have been collecting money, awards, achievement, status and more freedom, as artists and businessmen, I have been fighting for my life. It's called woman. It's called Atlantean. It's called being a person of light. I do human rights because I have fought for mine, my whole life.
What singles me out is that I know it. That is what makes a human rights leader. When you know who you are and what you have been doing.
I am also a writer. A photographer and a performer. I also write screenplays, plays and the novel form. I am a former slave and an artist. A poor artist, single and in a difficult life, because everyone wanted her to be a slave. Family, men, bosses, anyone. Friends. A mother slave, because despite the fact that she didn't have children, she is, it seems, a great mother. It also turns out that she is Spiritual Heirarchy. As you are in your field and Cuba is in his field and so on, I am heirarchy in the spiritual and esoteric and philosophical. I am also pretty far in the writing and arts fields too. I have also, just begun.
...these were useful to me today, from my long list of self exploration....
AMERA ZIGANII RAO :: WRITER. INTELLECTUAL. PHILOSOPHER. MYSTIC. METAPHYSICIST. MENTALIST. FEMINIST. SOCIAL THEORIST. CREATIVE
AMERA ZIGANII RAO :: WARRIOR PROPHET™, NATURAL BORN MYSTIC™ & SAVAGE MESSIAH™
AMERA ZIGANII RAO :: FREEDOM THEORIST, LOVE THEORIST, PHILOSOPHER, TEACHER & WRITER. PHOTOGRAPHER ARTIST + DESIGNER + PERFORMER
AMERA ZIGANII RAO :: NATURAL BORN MYSTIC: SAVAGE MESSIAH™. WARRIOR. HUMAN RIGHTS, FEMINIST, METAPHYSICAL & POLITICAL & MORAL PHILOSOPHER, WRITER & SPEAKER. WITCH DOCTOR OF THE MIND™. HIEROPHANT
AMERA ZIGANII RAO :: SUFFRAGETTE & POLITICAL FREEDOM FIGHTER IN THE HOME AND IN THE COUNTRY AND IN THE WORLD
AMERA ZIGANII RAO :: ALL THAT IS EVE AND NOTHING THAT IS 'THE MADONNA'. JUST PURE ANGEL AND PURE SERPENT TOGETHER
AMERA ZIGANII RAO :: FORMER NEWS JOURNALIST & TELEVISION CAMERAWOMAN. DEGREE IN SOCIAL SCIENCES
And this is what I do. Now, I'd say that was a pretty tall order. But not, if I were a man.
ESSAY RHETORIC. POETRY POLEMICS. PERFORMANCE: FREESPEAK & TRANSFORMATIONAL EDUCATIONAL. METAPHYSICAL PHILOSOPHY. DIALECTICS. SELF ACTUALISATION TECHNIQUES. MENTALISM. THEOLOGY. SPIRITUALITY. PSYCHOLOGY. POLITICS. ANTHROPOLOGY. SEX. THE PRIMAL OF POWER. THE LOST KNOWLEDGE™. HIEROPHANT SHAMANISM™. THE WIZARDRY OF BEING™. AMERA ZIGANII RAO ALCHEMY & LIBERATION & HUMANITY™. THE HIEROPHANT BUSINESS™
That's all I'll say. Thank you for the love. And thank you for the love too, Cuba. I'm exploring the website myself now as you know and will add to this piece from time to time.
Here's to aloneness. The end of co-dependencies of all kind. They are not allowed. And as usual, I have to lead the way. It is my duty. And my strength.
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A winner will win. Because she or he knows how to 'die'. Knowing how to 'die', means knowing how to win.
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...on the contrary, I feel very safe with you actually. But it's more about everything else really isn't it...we've just 'met'. Plus, you are still effectively in mother dependency. You have to be. You are not ascended and you are not here. And it's still psychic. I cannot afford another seven years of yearning my friend. I can't, frankly, even afford seven more days. But I will work and listen. If it's all I get, it's a lot. But frankly, again, the whole thing is agony. I want you and I want a life. Work I have. I want the rest but will wait.
Without needing or allowing myself, to need anything. The joy of a freedom fighter's / woman's life. It is The Holy Grail we pursue. And nothing less. That takes a miracle. That could be you.
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As for you Cuba, I don't know what to say.
Do you still hate men? No, but men still hate me. Mother Dependency. The Killer Sickness of The World. Amera Ziganii Rao © 2014
That's what I have to say. You are in such chronic mother dependency that I don't know how to reach you. You also fear that you won't be enough for me and I can't even remember what that means anymore and so on. But first and last it's just one thing. You have not contacted me in four years. That's it. I cannot cope with it anymore, I have begged for contact or a sign or some encouragement but you just hold on with psychic co-dependency and give nothing.
That is not love my sweet. I don't know what that is, but it's sickness and if I were not Spiritual Heirarchy, I would have died a long time ago. If you don't have the level of consciousness to be on the same page, you don't. I can't do anything about it anymore, other than give up all hope and expectation and need and greed and demands and requests. It didn't matter how I asked. You still gave nothing, you still give nothing and I don't know why.
But I cannot be involved with an abusive relationship while you pamper our friend because she lets you run her career. You are all bonkers and if New York turns out to be the same, so be it. But just exploring some other hope means hope. You mean death to me now. You give me no hope at all and you disempower me into the grave. And I don't want to die. Not in that way. I think I deserve more.
But you are welcome to get in touch. There's the phone which is a great invention and then there is email. Both very reliable forms of communication. What can I say? You are stark raving mad and I wish I could have reached you. I didn't. I can't do it anymore.
I have no idea what any of this means, other than your hired Rumpelstilstkin overhead. One day I will know. But before that, I can only move with the times. And the times says, New York, or nothing. And meanwhile of course, no need, scrabbling around in the dirt in this ridiculous life of chronicling oppression and then forgetting about it all and just doing my work with my people . They give me hope. They give me life. They will more than do. Men turned out, so far, to be absolutely off the planet, bonkers. I am proud of myself. I tried. Now, I try in a different way. But no longer with you. You make me want to die. You break my heart. You are actually mad. Mad, fascist, scared and dependent. I wish I could have helped you. I couldn't.
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Cuba. Amera Ziganii Rao
That's it. You know. You told me I would leave you if I knew. I did. I am back. It seems to me my sweetheart, that either you and I will reach The Holy Grail, one day, or we will spend our lives trying to. And there may be many beautiful people along the way.
Or this could be the other way around. I don't think so. But I think it will take a long time and I think it may be to do with the cosmic knowledge recently that talked about a couple more years of terrible hardship. The Apocalypse.
So, who knows. But I haven't left you anymore. New York is there too. But I feel I know the answer and if I do, I do, and if I don't, I don't.
I love and I am back. And I have big love for New York too. And that will have to do.
Had a great first day of my three professions. You are always with me. Psychic Twin Soul or not. You are always with me. And you have stopped attacking my professional self now and are doing what you want.
And it seems to me that I have spent my whole life just fighting for the right to self determination.
The self determination I was going to have to do by myself. At the end of the day, now I have got over the shock and injustice, so what. You help in the way you do. New York has helped in the way he has.
The path is set in stone and I have found objectivity again. For you. That is a mighty feat indeed.
I remain in Chelsea, yours. And for now, with a lovely and equally misogynistic, mother dependent, awesome and attentive man. Same same. You and I may be on course. I accept the burden and the blessing. After all the love is the only thing that is real. And you and I love.
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New York and Cuba. Amera Ziganii Rao
I do however have to accept now in the grown up part of our love, that I am in love with two men. How terribly sophisticated. So, there are no groundings, no securities and no certainties at this end anymore. Other than loneliness, poverty, obedience (celestial) and love (psychic and mine). And work at long last. Being loved as I self determine to the next stages. And a solid feeling of family. Strangely. And I suppose, a lot of love, desire and companionship. Companions to the goddess. That is you and you.
And I should say in all lack of ambition for any end anymore, in the spiritual demands of The Apocalypse, thank you. Thank you for your companionship.
It means the world to me. I hope to do you proud. Both of you. Do me proud. Ascend. The new 'facing ourselves' journey.
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Our Purposes. Amera Ziganii Rao
I do however Hierophant news today, I feel. I don't want to feel pain, but first, who am I kidding, and second, this is too profound to cower from 'the macho visceral' of all of this, the heart and soul of what we are experiencing. All of us.
I always knew, the moment the realisation hit of all that is misogyny and 'The High Priestess Violator' as I immediately delivered to you, four years ago, almost exactly, that you and I could not be on direct karma journeys. That may not seem clear at the moment, but to give the long and short of it, I knew we were just here to go through the motions. That none of this was real.
You were meant to be all that you are and you were meant to use it for your life and your purpose and I was meant to be all that I am and I was meant to use it for my life and my purpose.
The reason we, as The Twin Souls are so 'stuck' in this permanent indecision, mirrored now by the equally miraculous appearance of my Ascension Twin Flame, and the omnipresence of your friend, and my Ascension Twin Flame's own partner, and other friends, is because we love each other that much.
Marcus Vinicius, we could not have done any of this, if we did not love each other in the way that only we know we do. In fact, I would go further. The dream, where you told me, 'any other girl I would have blamed', well, I think you have blamed me and I have blamed you, but that's not what you meant, 'you' in the dream. You meant the same thing I am saying. There is no way that you and I would have tolerated this in any one else. Four years of cleansing the souls of - well, I don't know where to begin - the whole bloody world, basically. You have been my muse, my executioner, my saviour, and my father partner husband for seven years of the most psychically growing supernatural existence blasting, that I could ever have imagined. Consciousness indeed.
From the nano second, that I saw you in the theatre foyer. I didn't see you. I saw a flash into another dimension and from that moment on, knew practically where you were in the building and when you were and when you were not and from then it grew and grew. As you know too.
We are here on a mission Marcus Vinicius. As I and my Ascension Twin Flame are too, I feel. The phrase, 'we are not physical beings having a spiritual experience, we are spiritual beings having a physical experience' was written for us as far as I am concerned. Proven by this whole journey we have made together, let alone how I and my Ascension Twin Flame have 'met', too.
I am a guide in this life, but you are a muse. As is my Ascension Twin Flame too. I look forward to exploring the true esoteric spiritual reality of what a muse actually is. The knowledge of all that is psychic is future Hierophant work.
Anyway, not much more to say there, other than to say that we are allowed to be devastated. That air of desperate doom over us from the beginning was true. And other than the terrible wrongs of the sadness of all that is misogyny and The Whore and The Madonna, and anything that is male or Lemurian abuse of power and fascism and selfish dehumanising pussy loving, denying the needs of the person, 'love'and the truth that you are only different from me in the sense of actually being able to make consciousness visceral - a huge difference that makes all the difference and is as much to do with the (non judgmental) difference between a highly talented creative and a pure artist.
You are not slower in consciousness in the sense of not having the highest spiritual intelligence too. You have been a completely fulfilling muse consciousness partner. Perfect. And it is still you I muse when I work. Not least because you are the work, but my professional work covers much more than romantic and partnership love of course, but you are always there. As a writer and philosopher, where the process of silence and 'imagination' is what it is all about, like it is for all dramatic artists too and any professional who creates from the eternal truth, The Universe, that has been more than beautiful, which is probably why I have been able to wait so long so far.
Of course it almost killed me several times. We know about the pain and I am going to have to examine every detail of all of it to teach from it and guide from it. And you have provided the material that all men and Lemurians are. Despite all that you have caused me in pain, neglect and cruelty, do not think for one second that, first, anyone else would have been that different, and second, you have done a great thing.
We have done a phenomenal thing together. But you did a great thing too. You held me, mused me and cared for me in the silence even when you hated me.
I emphasise the sacred purpose tonight, Marcus Vinicius. Companion to the goddess indeed.
And why do I say all this to you? I will speak of much of the greatness of this throughout my work forever, but I say it because I do keep grieving and realising that we are being asked to let go of each other. For good.
And that neither of us, or indeed my Ascension Twin Flame with his life as is, or anyone else, should feel anything but genuine grief and pain and self worth and self parenting and therefore, peace and understanding of what we are having to do.
It is said that The Twin Soul is the karma of past lives and that The Ascension Twin Flame is the one with no past karma.
That would also explain our emotional adoration and kinship and indescribable love. And our intellectual and spiritual intellectual match. Yours and mine.
Which is why it is important now I feel to know that we are not direct karma growing individuals who have just found consciousness. We, you and me, we reached in a past life.
I remember the first thing I remember when I 'woke up' (blasted into adult consciousness) at the age of 8. I was livid that I was on earth again. Absolutely devastated and really angry and directly angry at Divinity. When I thought Divinity was the male energy too. I was furious. I had already stepped off this mad cycle of lives on earth. I am increasingly convinced of that, the more I slowly integrate of existing knowledge of esotericism. Before I create my own through the communing, the 'sobbet' as is called in Sufism. Visceral Hierophant.
You, me, New York, The Other even, your friend even, all of us, this soul cluster in its expanse and its contraction, we are Doreen Virtue's Earth Angels. Love Earth Angels. All linked up to show the vast profundity of this subject that is almost ridiculed in normal Lemurian society.
Anyway, that's it for now. But just beginning to find the courage to face the truth now. Because the truth I am increasingly feeling about my Ascension Twin Flame is confirming it again. It's all known, all pre planned and all our purpose and our jobs. With a bit of joy in between. We are all part of the guide work. We are all part of the plan.
And Dark Lemurian, the darkest maybe, or Light Atlantean, we should all be proud. And everyone else in between. Why not. Objectivity = generosity. Generosity = peace.
Peace = love.
It could never have been any one else. Until now. And surely it seems, in your way, to be the same for you. That will never take away the love. Nothing will ever take that away. You and I may never converge. But we share the love genius together. That, no one can take from you ever. You never did not understand every single word I wrote as I wrote it. You were the first. You are my Twin Soul.
And you and I had to clear the past - again - this life. It was our job. To clear and chronicle. We will meet in the afterlife. When we all return to the waterfalls.
x
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A great deal going on today, for all of us of course....here's something nice from Facebook...we are all part of the plan. We are all in the love. AZR
~ SaLuSa – September 5, 2014 by Mike Quinsey ~
The stage has been set inasmuch that you are being lifted up into the levels of the higher vibrations. We will not allow progress to be prevented by the presence of the dark Ones, who still believe that they can inherit the Earth through huge advances in their technology. There are even greater powers at work that will ensure the Light always reigns supreme.
The plan was laid down a very long time ago, and it is now time to advance it so that Man can step fully upon the path that leads to fulfilment. So you can disregard any signs to the contrary, and know that the new Earth is emerging. With it will come all manner of Galactic changes that shall carry you forward into the Golden Age you have been promised.
You have long awaited this time and you have been chosen to be the forerunners of the New Age. Deep down you know it to be true and as the vibrations continue to lift, so your levels of consciousness will also expand. A particle of God exists in all living matter, and as such you will always inexplicably be part of God. Nothing that exists can avoid being ultimately returned to the Godhead, because you Are All One.
Proceed with your own development knowing that your journey is nearly at an end. If you did but know it you have had an exciting journey, with all the ups and downs that come with life in the 3rd dimension. You started out as a higher Being seeking more experience, and have touched the depths of a material existence.
You are now well advanced on your journey back into the Light as you leave the lower vibrations behind. The higher dimensions beckon and you approach them as a far greater Being of Light than when you first started out. You have evolved at a rapid rate that ensures you are ready to commence the next stage in your evolution fully prepared.
When your journey commenced eons of time ago, you knew it would be long and arduous yet were ready for whatever experience you needed. In the near future you will regain full consciousness and fully understand the necessity for your various experiences. Once more you will be whole to never again need such demanding experiences.
From here on you can look forward to an ever expanding level of consciousness, as you enjoy a sudden change that will thrust you forward into a higher level of being. So be patient and know that all proceeds well and according to plan. Even those souls who appear to lag behind are simply completing their experiences at whatever level is necessary for them to evolve.
You would not be here at this time unless you were capable of handling the demands that it imposes.
You are all brave and wonderful souls who have sacrificed much to be here, and you will reap the benefits very soon. The hard work is all but over so do not despair at what goes on around you. It is time to focus on your own needs, and ensure you are ready for the final days of the old energies and all that it embraces. The new energies are emerging and if yours are similar you will attract them and continue to rise up.
We have as you might say, “our finger upon the pulse of the Earth” and we assist Mother Earth as she too makes her preparations to ascend. The changes necessary are in hand, and we have assisted her in making them with the minimum of problems to the life forms upon Earth.
The more you can work in harmony with the Earth, the easier the transition will be for all life forms.
The more extreme damage has been prevented which could have had the most serious consequences, even to the extent of destroying the Earth. However, that period has long passed but was nevertheless in the time period of many who are still alive today. Following edicts that come from the Spiritual Hierarchy over eons of time, we have directed and assisted you so that you have followed a less damaging path.
Although there is still disharmony upon Earth that seems to dominate your news, the fact remains that the vibrations are lifting and you have passed the danger period. Bear in mind that you are all here to witness the end times of the last Age. Peace such as you understand it will suddenly descend upon Earth sooner than you might expect.
Over your many lives you have acquired much knowledge and your experience will help you to serve others. In reality life is about helping your fellow Man to evolve, and the Wayshowers will always lead the way. They mainly work beyond your sight and are involved in issues that are of Galactic proportions. One day you too will take on similar responsibilities but that is of course well into your future.
Life on Earth resembles very little of how it will be in the higher vibrations, indeed very little at all. However, it is the lessons learnt that will hold you in good stead and able to be mentors to those who follow on. There are of course other quite different life forms to yours, yet the underlying goal is evolution that returns you to the Light. It is from whence you came and you will always feel a connection with it, and an urge to return to it. There is so much that you have been cut off from to ensure your experiences upon Earth are in accordance with your needs.
Without merging into the lower vibrations you would not have had such wonderful experiences, and that includes all of them as those you term negative are also vital to your understanding. So do judge those still embroiled in them as all experience is of immense value, and all souls go through many periods of trial and error. The whole experience makes you ready to carry others forward and you will do it as a denizen of the Light. Do not worry about what lies ahead, as there will always be others to take your hand and guide you.
I am SaLuSa from Sirius, a star that is teeming with life that is sending its Light far and wide to lift those souls to whom it is of benefit. Quite soon you will be able to join us and then your life will be one great adventure as you travel the Universe.
You will be guided by the Higher Beings who know the needs of those you serve, and life will be exciting and rewarding. Do not believe for one moment that you will be wanting for satisfying experiences, and of course you will still be evolving as you are now.
Thank you SaLuSa
Mike Quinsey
Via The Light Messenger
http://www.treeofthegoldenlight.com/ isa:)
The Original Dream. Amera Ziganii Rao
And then, I am just the Hierophant. I don't know the answers anymore than you, Cuba. And you know what. I'm glad. This may be the long horrendous journey back to you. You wanted me to face the truth of my own life first. You've got it. So, who knows.
I am in polite independence at last. I know my place. I build alone. The rest, we shall see. You are both magnificent. I am a lucky girl.
I also know how I am not lucky at all. Because I am a girl. So, let's just accept it. I'm alone and at the bottom. I won't be. That will have to do.
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Maybe The Real Whore and Madonna Story. Amera Ziganii Rao
You know, strictly now in the interests of the answers, I recall the first time this ever happened in my life. Well, actually, the second time.
I was 22. I was in my final year at college; the humble Polytechnic of Central London which is now The University of Westminster.
I was, as said before, doing a degree in Social Sciences, in a building in central London, that was shared with the Business Studies students too. I had spent three great years being a 1980s Social Sciences student in central London, with a great group of 'mature' students from all walks of ethical and sociologically ethical life in London. Like Bob Dylan, I didn't have time to go to lectures for most of my time, as I was learning how to be a revolutionary in all sorts of intellectual, visceral and marijuana and alcohol related ways and being very political and quiet really, listening, to for the first time, my elders and betters.
I had also been told in the first year by a political lecturer that my first essay was 'too provocative'. I didn't understand what that meant and promptly lost interest. I didn't really write again, until I became a news journalist a few years later.
In the third year however, I realised I better get a degree. I had had to beg my father to continue helping me as he had tried to imprison me at home at the age of 21 because I wouldn't marry some (very handsome) cousin my mother had in mind for me. A sort of relaxed middle class arranged marriage but one that made me screech in horror at the thought of it. My father disowned me, I ran off never to come back and then found out that I couldn't get an education grant without him. Why I didn't just shove the degree I don't know, but I had to return 'home' and beg him to help me and effectively become a whore for the rest of my time and so began a strange whoreish relationship with my father because I never had any money.
So, I thought I had better do some work. So, I retired with my student friends, people who were very much my family by then, to the library. Studied there for about four or five months or something and by the way, actually managed to get a degree.
That is not the point, even though it is really. Because during the four to five months, going to the library and to the student bar, I fell in love. His name was Jonathan. He was the first of your kind. A footballer type, very handsome, and completely focused on me, obsessively every day in the library. How I got any work done I don't know. But I did. In between of course, I was absolutely smitten.
He continued and continued this and of course drove me into a frenzy. And of course, he never spoke, never approached me and never said anything to me whatsoever. He just kept our very loud I am sure, psychic love affair going on, every single day in the library. The looks, the glances, the staring, all of it. The vibrational psychicness, etc.
So, seeing as this was the first time it ever happened to me - actually, in the central London hostel I lived in, it had happened once too and when I approached the guy, he actually denied it as so many have since - I became obsessed to the point of pain. So, I thought I would do something about it. In my innocence, I believed that he was actually scared and shy and all this. So, I very very courageously, approached him. I almost accosted him in a seminar room where he was sitting. There were actually a couple of people around him but of course, I didn't let that stop me, and I asked him out. And he said yes. It was very beautiful actually, and if I hadn't been so afraid, I might have remembered more. But it was very nice and he looked suitably coy and affected. And grateful.
My social sciences family went nuts. Many of them were older women and now, that I am an older woman, I know exactly why they got hysterical. They thought this was the most amazing thing they had ever heard of and were celebrating almost to the point of embarrassment in the grotty bedsit in Dulwich that a few of us inhabited. Only Andy who was one of the guys in the group - a dark Lemurian for sure - was hesitant. He played football with Jonathan and just sat quietly and indicated that he wasn't sure about all of it and wished me well, but.....
Sure enough, a couple of days later, a phone call came. It was Jonathan. He was terribly sorry but he had a girlfriend. I am not sure if he even apologised for 'misleading' me, or anything. I think he spoke quite straight actually. He just said he had a girlfriend and much as he wanted to hook up, he couldn't and hoped I was okay with that. I was suitably gutted but got over it.
Later, in the student bar, there was Jonathan a while later. We had a conversation. A prickly and sexual energy charged one where he was sparring and putting me down and just playing really. It was okay. Very real. He was from the Caucasus mountains I remember him specifically saying and asking where I was from. He decided I was from the Caucasus mountains too, with the north of Pakistan being nearby.
He also turned up with his girlfriend a few days later. A sandy haired fellow Lemurian, now I see the order of things.
Anyway, that petered out and the desire and the connection was always there til college ended a few months later. The point is not all of that however. On the last day, when we were all back in college for our results, the two courses were of course together in the building. I didn't know all the students on my courses of course, but some I knew to talk to and seeing as I had hardly gone to lectures, that was amazing in itself. One, an attractive Nigerian born girl, I cannot remember her name, specifically came to me on this last day and wanted to speak to me. So, there we were, an attractive Nigerian born girl and an attractive British born Pakistani girl and it turns out that we were speaking about not one but two Englishmen. Handsome Business Studies Englishmen.
It had been a bet. To get coloured girls to pay them attention and fall in love with them.
Now, I would be the last person to deny the truth of what he and I felt. You know me. I feel the lies. I feel the truth. And I did even then. I had already spent very artistic hours alone my whole life. I was psychic and advanced a long time before I even knew.
But it was awful to hear that and it left me broken and shocked.
Now, years and years later, I am beginning to understand what has been going on.
The truth of Atlantis and Lemuria exists. And it turns out that Lemurian princes and kings like Atlantean women. The so called 'whore and Madonna' is that. And it goes back that far and is that much of a template.
And when I see the extraordinary prejudice against my appearance that has gone on my whole life, fit or not fit, plump or not plump, hair too curly for some, hair too this for others, clothes too this, clothes too that, I can see a new picture.
We are the women you hide. The others are the women you stand up with. For instance, in Robert de Niro's The Good Shepherd, the woman he loves, the one he sees about twice in his life - the only time we ever see him smile - is blind.
That, in the widest sense, is an Atlantean trait. Vulnerability, disability, and just a DIFFERENT physique. Voluptuous Queens. It is my curves that have astounded and offended people my whole life.
The men always saved me. Now, however, I am beginning finally to understand the final part of the picture. You only save me. IN PRIVATE.
If I had not learned who I am and if I did not have great self appreciation and if I was not used to so much attention and desire as I receive, that could have killed me. It has most certainly made me feel like a piece of dirt on your shoe.
But on the contrary, it has given me something today. Truth. I finally get what the fuck has been going on my whole life. The 'whore and Madonna' is all I have said. Lemurian fellow companions and Atlantean romance Queens. That is who you are. And that extends to what we look like, what we do, and what we say. And what we look like apparently really does have a bearing too. I am too sexual apparently, too sexy. My body is not subtle. And neither is my spirit. And so on. I am sure there are a thousand other things.
But for me, this takes it all to a new level. I know you are doing your best and so is New York, I know you are too, New York. But this thing is too big. I feel like giving up. And I am for now. This whole fantastical truth means that I should not exist in any place of power in your world and now I finally understand why no man wants to make me real either. There is an agenda on this earth that is so all pervasive and so real, it is ludicrous.
It is time to give up. I will be a piece of dirt in this society, until I rise against it and trade with my people and yours about this world. And I will do it alone. I see how big it is now. And how sincerely you cannot do it.
We are all in this together at least and trying to find the answers. It'll probably take years. I am at the moment, done. We are truly not supposed to be together. Any of us.
And it seems that along with chronic mother dependency, there is the added bonus that I am not supposed to be seen in public. Funny that. That puts a whole new edge on hijab. There should be a special Atlantean version for Romantic Atlantean Queen Whores who are not wanted as wives or girlfriends. Oh yes, there are. It's called invisibility.
No wonder I have been attacked my whole life. I am beautiful. All of me. My looks and my personality. Both, exquisite and beautiful. And I had no idea. I wonder why. And that was my family I am talking about. Let alone the rest of you. Omnipotence indeed. Omnipotent of nothing. I am the omnipotent one. I know we ALL have the right to be visible. I know we ALL have the right to power. I am not even a 'Morgana'. I wanted to share. It seems though that I am not supposed to exist. Oops, sorry.
Yeah right. Sorry, my arse. I get that you can't help me, now. I get that you cannot even help yourselves. Caucasus mountains. That is all I say to you. Caucasus Mountains. I survived all of you. And I didn't die. Make sure you don't either. John Lennon was a cool guy. He loved an Atlantean.
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And despite his enormous heart and courage, John Lennon was not an Atlantean. He was not even a Light Lemurian. Amazing man, to say the least. Now, I really see that.
No wonder you get such a kink from taboo in the sex.
I'm a femme fatale. Because I am not just an Atlantean Queen, I may be THE Queen. It all makes sense. I am supposed to be invisible.
I pledge to make myself as VISIBLE in life as possible and I will take all the blows that go with that. I am a Lion. I will rise to take over this world.
Alone, now I understand the vast prison that YOU live in.
And my favourite phrases at college were these; (of course, I was paying attention)
Neo colonialism
Cultural Imperialism
You live in a prison of Lemurian cultural imperialism. Both of you. All of you. Your Lolita fantasy is the taboo of that society. Your will to kill my career is also to toe the line with Lemurian cultural imperialism. I am supposed to be invisible. The last thing I have EVER been, even when I couldn't speak, was invisible. I am too good looking, too enormous a heart and mind and soul, to ever be that. I am a great soul and you want to make me invisible and you have no idea what you are doing.
I think we get it. I think we are alone.
Love, love, love and love. Here is to Atlantean VISIBILITY. Power, loudness and presence. I am going to take over this world. And end the pathetic and ugly, UGLY Lemurian cultural imperialism. You will have to catch up. No wonder you are slower. You are that afraid. Fathers and mothers are that frightening, yes. The Tribe is yours. The Tribe can go fuck itself. I am going to take over this world. Everyone will remember my name. And how I ended Lemurian cultural imperialism and the forced invisibility of my people. The real beauty of this world. The Light. The Divine energy of Love. Me.
And I continue. My archetype's psychosis and then healed problem is terrible terror of rejection. I wonder why. Yours is fear of death. Death by The Tribe. For very good reason. Your people have always talked to me about fear of abandonment. Fear of loss. It's not fear of loss. It's fear of death. Death by the tribe. Society pussies basically. As the most powerful men in the world. What a minefield. No wonder they kill High Priestesses. We deliver.
And, despite all the abuse, you are our friends. That is a kind of love for sure. If you don't kill us. Which you so often do. Wow. No one is free. You are embarrassed of Atlantean women. And you created your sickness of mother dependency as a result. You fear loss because you make sure you lose.
And on it goes. I will stop now. That's enough to process. For now.
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The Whore's Right To Decide. Amera Ziganii Rao
I've had a very difficult day. So, New York and Cuba, I have made a decision. I am never going to be with a man. Whatever destines I have been promised my whole life, I reject them completely from today.
I didn't know that men only care for children. I didn't know that and will never be embarrassed about not knowing. That's the first thing. I was never going to have children, so I was never going to be cared for as the mother, because apparently, that is all men care for. And by care, I mean that thing called 'love' and companionship and whatever. I wouldn't know. I've never had it, let alone sharing resources or anything like that.
So, after sharing my resources for 4 years like never before, I have found out that it didn't make any difference and it didn't make any difference because men only care for children. And by that I probably mean slave girls and children.
We also now know about the 'Society Pussies'. Men who are programmed to kill High Priestesses because society has taught them to hate anything that is not a bourgeois slave. Men who will sit and watch women die, rather than love them, out of fear of the tribe. That, alongside the male propensity to obviously know nothing about love, means that women like me are being killed off every day, every second and every hour, by neglect, lack of love and active hatred and non contact.
I get it. I really do.
So, my life is that of a revolutionary now. To finally, after regaining the will to live on this stupid planet, this planet of Lemurian Cultural Imperalism, with a BRICK ceiling, not a glass one by any means, spread this message far and wide. Everyone must know. And everyone must know that for us, for Atlanteans, there is only one option. To wait for a natural death, so we can finally ascend of this planet and leave it to you.
I no longer want it. I don't want anything to do with your world or your values or your rules.
For 42 years, since the age of eight, I have lived an admirable life of trying to love this earth. I can't do it anymore. I cannot however commit suicide, either literally or metaphorically. It is not in my nature to die in life and it is a disaster to commit suicide as one gets stuck in the loop of reincarnation and has to come back and do this again.
Now, as an Earth Angel, I am sure it is not as bad, but maybe it is and I can't afford to find out, even though you can see that I am having serious discussions about suicide and ending it now. I am in agony and no one cares and worse, no one understands. How on earth can you understand my pain and seeing as you don't care about women anyway, other than sexually, why would you.
Which puts a whole new light on dependency for sure. 'Women who love too much'? Are you kidding. Women are not supposed to love at all. Because there is no love at all. I most certainly get that now.
I could have been polite, I could have turned to New York and said, er, okay, let's give it a go and no, I don't mind that you just want to be psychic, all over again, like him, and no, I don't mind that you don't want to give me any human companionship at all and that you just want sex. But I can't. I will take the 'friendship' from both of you in whatever form it comes, probably. I have nothing else and we all need at least the illusion of communication and contact.
But don't ever ask me to take it seriously. I understand now. Men fuck. Women love. There is no correlation. Men do not give friendship or care or companionship to women. Men fuck. Women love.
So, I have made a decision. I will create my own life now, long and hard though the journey may be. And I will have part time lovers. If they remain psychic, I don't even care about that anymore. Sex gets boring after a while, if there is no communication, and I say that as a sex siren. So I will have part time lovers and nothing else. What's the point. There is nothing else.
Other than that, I now face the uphill struggle to maintain the will to live. I see life as a job now. And therefore, am only working for eternity and for that which I serve. I reject the so called harvest of my life, and do not believe that I will ever be happy, despite what I have been told. What I do believe in is material success, the revolution, and death. I cannot wait for the day I die and before that, meditation can be my only release. The rest is tedious bullshit. Including you.
And you can be extra happy now. Knowing that this is one woman who will never ask for anything ever again. Men give nothing. Not even themselves. I will never ask again. I am most definitely on my own. I always was. Always will be. The Great Mother Universe holds me. And one day, at last, I can return to Her. And fuck everything else.
I also accept that on a personal level, it is about me. No one has ever wanted me. And I know why. It's not personal and it is. I no longer want to be wanted. I accept that I am a social pariah. And that no man will ever want me for anything else, other than a psychic fuck. I accept. And leave the whole subject of hope and happiness behind forever. I no longer believe in 'love'. And not before time. I also no longer believe in men. Not before time.
Thank you and have a good day.
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Master Quotes
I want to die a slave to principles. Not to men. Emiliano Zapata
I'd rather die on my feet, than live on my knees. Emiliano Zapata
Ignorance and obscurantism have never produced anything other than flocks of slaves for tyranny... Emiliano Zapata
"Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear, not absence of fear." - Mark Twain
Our minds can shape the way a thing will be because we act according to our expectations. - Federico Fellini
To believe in freedom, to stand for justice, to value equality, these are the war cries of the revolutionary. Thomas Jefferson
"Greatest weariness comes from work not done." - Eric Hoffer
The capitalist (Lemurian) society is a prison society where individuals are forced to conform or face social alienation. George Orwell
Seek freedom and become captive of your desires. Seek discipline and find your liberty.--Frank Herbert
Revolutionary art is not about creating moods of relaxation; it is designed to intensify the revolutionary tensions in the worker. Picasso
Revolutionary literature is most effective when it attacks the enemy class mercilessly. Albert Camus
The active nihilist does not seek petty comforts and rewards; he (she) seeks the revolution of the self in everything that he (she) does. Friedrich Nietzsche
After five years in a relationship the average couple make more eye contact with television show characters than each other. Injustice Facts
The point of human communication is to open up the debate, not to sell a limited, circumvented, world view. Gore Vidal
Did you know that angels can fly anywhere, including inside bodies and the essence of your souls? Doreen Virtue
More resilience, less lassitude. What Humanity Needs
Daily Update. Amera Ziganii Rao
Well, I'll tell you how I feel today. Other than clearly being asked to reevaluate relationship across the board, which is fair enough but not fair enough in an unjust, Lemurian corruption world of abuse of power and the killing of my people every day, I have the privileged dilemma of the two of you.
First, Cuba. What I would say to you is this. You are looking after me. I can feel it and am grateful. I can also feel your love. However, I feel continuously like Eleanor of Aquitaine, I think it was, who Henry ll locked up in a tower, while he 'bonked' the maid sort of thing. He did this for years. I think you sincerely believe you will one day love me enough to be with me instead. I continuously think the opposite. 'The Lion in Winter' was the film with Peter O'Toole and Katherine Hepburn.
You, New York, I will have to make a decision to trust. To trust first of all that this is as huge for you as it is for me. Lightening indeed, does strike twice, apparently. I have to trust the truth of that to enter it completely. I am afraid that if I allow a psychic involvement with you, it will turn into another long, drawn out 'whore and Madonna' syndrome again. I think I am going to release that fear and despite my depression at my life and getting over Cuba, as I feel I am being asked to, I will respond to you. And trust you. And trust that you are as unhappy in your present life as I am. Cuba is not unhappy. You are. And that is the key.
Psychic involvement or not, it would be the same face to face. So, it is not just the loneliness of the psychic, but also the risk of involvement at all, after the seven years of continuous 'whore and Madonna' subjugation. Despite his sincerity.
That's what I can see so far. Other than the fact that I need meaning of life. And I don't have it today. I feel depressed, suicidal and despondent. I am facing an overwhelming task of trying to take my rightful place in this stupid world and I don't want to do it alone. I can do it alone, but I don't want to. I am fighting two battles in life. One is to take my place in this stupid world and the second is to find meaning of life in love with a man, as is my Divine right and purpose on earth. And yours. I am obviously looking forward to my team, but that is not the point and you know it. Looking for meaning of life is a fuck of a lot different from love dependency. I need meaning of life and I need it from you. I think you need it from me. That will have to be the start.
And let's make it fast. I cannot take any of this anymore and am relying on one of you feeling the same way. Otherwise there is no convergence and I will go to plan B, which I am also having to incorporate now anyway. Which is to release all desire for men and relationship and involvement at all. I don't want to give up hope. I need hope and I need goals. And one of you fits in with that. I think it is you New York. So, I will have to trust our involvement and trust your intensity of feeling too and see where we go. Cuba, I will always love you. But where we go with that I truly do not know. I trust your love. I don't trust what you are capable of doing with it. Not anymore. New York has come for a reason.
Thank you and lots of love.
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And God Created Woman. A Self Portrait. Amera Ziganii Rao Photography
AMERA ZIGANII RAO: A PROFILE
AMERA ZIGANII RAO: A PROFILE
Writer and Intellectual. Social, Cultural and Spiritual Commentator. Personal Development Coach and Communicator. Philosopher and Metaphysical Clair Cognisant (Prophetess, Hierophant and Esoteric Mystic). Theologian, Theosophist and Historian. Photographer, Graphic Artist. Designer, and Actor/Dramatist/Filmmaker. Feminist and Human Rights Advocate, and a Healer of Emotional Sicknesses and Self Discoveries on earth.
AMERA ZIGANII RAO :: AN ATLANTEAN ELDER ON EARTH
AMERA ZIGANII RAO :: SACRED WHORE HIGH SERPENT PRIESTHOOD FEMALE HIEROPHANT AVATAR VALKYRIE WIZARD MONARCH™ & SACRED DISIR
AMERA ZIGANII RAO ALCHEMY & LIBERATION & HUMANITY™
Amera Ziganii Rao :: Supernatural Cosmic Intelligence + Supernatural Intelligence. Training to be a world class educator in Consciousness + The Politics of Rape/The True Love Journey + Human Rights + Purpose + The Lost Knowledge + Inner and Outer Power.
NATURAL BORN MYSTIC™ :: THE RETURN TO ATLANTIS :: THE RETURN TO LEMURIA
NATURAL BORN MYSTIC™ :: THE TRUE LOVE JOURNEY :: THE POLITICS OF RAPE :: AMERA ZIGANII RAO
I have fought a great, great battle. Atlantis is no longer raped by a Lemurian earth. The rest we shall see. Leadership training indeed. Warrior, lover, Valkyrie, Healer, Prophet and Atlantean Queen. That is me. Warrior, lover, poet in training, and broken Agamemnon, woman beating warlord of filth and slavery, will he be. Atlantis is firmly back on earth. Now, true love may just finally be.
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NATURAL BORN MYSTIC™ :: THE LOVE HOLOCAUST :: THE LIFE HOLOCAUST :: THE DIVINITY HOLOCAUST
The Macho Intellectual Consciousness Passion and Compassion of the Visceral Soul.
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Amera Ziganii Rao :: Writer. Philosopher. Performer. Psychologist. Humanist. Esoteric. Sexualist. Hedonist. Artist. Teacher. Coach. Social Reformer. Feminist. Hierophant. Sacred Disir. Former Slave. Seer. Sage. :: My Business Is Transformation Of The Soul. My Business Is Power. My Business Is Freedom. My Business Is Love. My Business Is To Fight Fascism And Human Cruelty And Emotional Sickness In All Its Relationship Forms On Earth. My Business Is Applied Spirit. Real Sex. Real Love. Real Life. Real GOD. The Return.
FEMINIST AND HUMAN RIGHTS, METAPHYSICAL PHILOSOPHER. WRITER. MENTALIST AND ARTIST
NATURAL BORN MYSTIC™ & AMERA ZIGANII RAO ALCHEMY & LIBERATION & HUMANITY™
The new educational website (Alchemy & Liberation & Humanity™ as a writing and speaking business of empowerment) will be announced. Meanwhile, enjoy the free writing and consciousness work on this website. It was written with blood, sweat and tears. The story of both my man and myself as we have struggled to re-define all that is relationship and marriage, the mutual journey of escape and evolution out of The Patriarchal Tribe.
The self discovery that took us from female slavery and male confusion and fascism into a society that was left behind a long time ago, when The New World Order took over and put men in charge, when they didn't even want it, by all that I have seen. Other than in sex as is the primal partnership. Our exploration is here. The world of Bluebeard Male Supremacy™ through to the Sacred Whore and High Female Esoteric Serpent Priesthood Society™, again, with men as the beloveds. Equality, Liberty, FRATERNITY. The New New World. Again.
Please feel free to read the material on this blog. My writings, plus work from other consciousness teachers too. My Manifesto for Human Rights (Especially Female) in Relationship and Family.
These writings will be produced in book form. Poetry Polemics for a better world of love, independence, sex and individuation. And true companionship and family. Power to the people, indeed. Together.
Thank you.
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The Two Messages ::
The Female Divine Highest Love Intelligence Energy. God The Mother, The Universe. Plus, the SACRED WHORE HIGH PRIESTESS HIEROPHANT AVATAR VALKYRIE WIZARD MONARCHs™ as the only true High Priests, with a GNOSTIC spirituality for all.
There is no love on earth. We are all here to fight for it, or be hate. We are here to be profound, or to be shallow. To be adventurers of the soul, or turgid and needing security, to be humane or greedy, to BE love, or BE hate. Earth is hell. Hell, created by hate, for hate, of hate. Free will is to choose which way to go. Love, or hate. That is Existentialism. That is evolution. That is the advancement of the soul. Hate to love. And nothing less. The conquering of evil by good. The light must push out the dark. The light must win.
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My Business Is Alchemy & Liberation & Humanity™
Feminism is not feminism. Feminism is anti slavery. They call us control freaks and that has to be watched. However, in the context of the truth, it is a ridiculous statement. It is the oppressor, calling the courageous campaigner for freedom and equality, the terrorist.
Feminism is not 'man hating'. Feminism is not feminism. Feminism is the movement against slavery. Humanitarianism is the same. Slavery must not exist in any form on earth. Slavery is everywhere.
From unpaid work in marriage to unpaid work in the family, to minimum wage in the market to a hundred other arenas, slavery is the way of earth.
Feminism and humanitarianism are the movements against it. Slavery is fascism. Fascism is everywhere. We just don't know it. They made sure that we don't know it. Now we do. And we will forever.
Society calls it bullying. Society calls it unfortunate, while propping it up in every single second, across the world. Fascism must die. Fascism will die. Fascism is to die.
That is World Ascension. The end of fascism.
My Business Is Alchemy & Liberation & Humanity™
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Alchemy & Liberation & Humanity™
The point of this planet is to find out what we are not, so we can find out what we are.
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Alchemy & Liberation & Humanity™
The journey to the breaking of one's lower self into one's great self. The actual journey. That is my business. Alchemy & Liberation & Humanity™. Turning oneself into gold and honey and authentic power. The pain of transformation, the shock and the trauma and terror and resistance of it. The path to heaven on earth. That is my business. THAT part of it. The crucifixion and disability of Alchemy & Liberation & Humanity™. The pain of it.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2012
Natural Born Mystic™
The compassion to go with the passion. The discipline of mind, to know your darkness and the education of a post patriarchal man. Love. And changing the very matter of your spiritual DNA. Ascension. I can feel it coming. The build up is your job. The rest I can help with.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
Avatar (James Cameron)
My daughter will teach you our ways. Learn well, Jake Sully. Then we will see if your insanity can be cured.
Mo'at
Natural Born Mystic™
Misogyny is sadism against women. An unconscious hijacking and a conscious will to maintain it.
Tyranny and sadism. Misogynists. Slaves of Sauron (Tolkein's Lord of the Rings). Wifebeaters.
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Natural Born Mystic™
An Hierophant is an interpreter of sacred mysteries and arcane principles. 'Jake Sully' (Avatar) is her Sacred Warrior Protector™
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Natural Born Mystic™
A Natural Born Mystic™ is primarily a Sacred Whore Healer as a Cinderella Warrior™. As a woman. A High Priestess Wizard™ is a Sacred Whore Healer and Enlightener. That has specific duties and challenges to do with men and their immense madness (Mo'at - Avatar) and their profanity (killing God The Mother, The Triple Goddess) and monetising the slavery of emotional care. A Sacred Whore Healer has to do this against all the odds. She does it because she and they, the Sacred Whore Healers and High Priestess Wizards™ are the strongest.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2012
Natural Born Mystic™
'Respect' as fear.
'The Accomplished Female' = the only thing that the male patriarch can deliver as 'love'. Men do not tolerate women earning money. They want slavery to instil FEAR. Fear as 'respect'. Fear is not 'respect'.
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Alchemy & Liberation & Humanity™
The secret enemies of psychological warfare. From within and without. Bringing the darkness of evil into the light. Immense self belief, intelligence and courage, plus wizardry. In other words, 'naming it and shaming it and letting it go' and re-programming the mind from any belief to another. To evolve.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2012
Consciousness. The politics of the 21st century. The Lost Knowledge. Forget trying to change the world. Change yourself. It changes your own world that changes THE world.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
Sexuality, non religious 'Wizard' and 'Witch' spirituality (the Gnostic intelligence of esoteric and consciousness exploration, ie wisdom and love) and human rights are the least fashionable things and the most uncomfortable things on the planet. And the things human beings have been damning and condemning for 8000 years. And the things that most people are absolutely fascinated by. What a shame. How bourgeois. How ordinary. How ego.
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The Sacred Whore High Priestess Society™
The Super Sacred Brother Lover™
The Return To The Source. Ascension.
The Sacred Whore High Priestess Society™. When we were giants. All of us. When you did more than rape me.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
Neo Feminist™, Post Tribe Social Reformer™ and Sacred Sexualist™. Human Rights Healer. Metaphysical Philosopher, Writer, Spiritual Intelligence Teacher, Hierophant (Interpreter of The Universe) and Mentalist Self Actualiser.
I can help you grow power, from nothing.
Alchemy & Liberation & Humanity™.
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The Sacred Whore High Priestess Hierophant™ and Sacred Pimp Warrior Protector, Brother Lover™ Society. The kings and queens of old. Angels and Sorcerers together in each of themselves and in the other. The Wizard life. Forever. Living and loving from The Source. Sourcery, Carlos Castaneda first said. I'll say it again. Sourcerers together. Living a life worth living. At last.
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Witches are healers. Witches are the Love Healers and SOURCErers of The Lost World, when we were the giant warriors. We were good and so were were you. 'The World of Men'. The Tribe of Misogyny and Bourgeois™.
Gives us all a bad name. And poisons all hearts.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
Feminist Lolita Intellectuals™. You lucky man. A place at the table, a place at the Executive Table. That's all. The rest is easy.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
Spiritual power = emotional power = emotional intelligence = mental intelligence = re-programming of the whole self = spiritual intelligence = The Lost Knowledge™ = power = The New World.
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The Company
Writer, Speaker and Enlightener, Amera Ziganii Rao, is now putting together a comprehensive and unique programme of Alchemy & Liberation & Humanity™. A programme of learning that is specifically about one particular kind of woman. And one particular kind of man. The Sacred Whore High Priestess™ and the Sacred Whore High Priest™, and the true society that they come from and the one they, in particular, she can and has to return to and that anyone can join her and him in. This is about Paradise on Earth.
This is about The Sacred Whore High Priestess™ and the Sacred Whore High Priest™, and the Alchemy and Liberation and Humanity that is for all as a result of their healing and in particular, hers. This is about the kind of woman who is at the bottom of the pile in a Patriarchal Toilet Tribe from Hell Society™, the norm, the conventional world and the world of the Tribe. This is about the kind of man who is next in line from the bottom. The sensitive man and the female chattel. The High Priestess and High Priest of a profane society, that has long forgotten who they are.
This is about being at the bottom of the pile, for the forgotten and strangled shamans, and for her, the story of escape. Abused by her family, her friends, her men, her whole society, by the very nature of who she is and who they are and what has happened on this Earth. It is about women of love, of Spirit and of sex. It is about men of love, of Spirit and of sex. It is about the Cinderellas of this world. It is about the The Sacred Whore High Priestess™. Who she is and how, loving her is the secret to Paradise on Earth and how we have been living a lie for 8000+ years. A lie of male (non High Priest) religion with a male ‘God’ and with Patriarchs and Patriarchal types and Matriarchs and Matriarchal types ruling over us and making our lives hell, all in the name of family, the tribe and the way things are and should remain. Hate, fascism and profanity. A sick society that vilifies, more than anyone else, the The Sacred Whore High Priestess™, just because it was told to. A sick society that calls her Eve. A sick society that has forgotten who we all are, let alone the The Sacred Whore High Priestess™ and the Sacred Whore High Priest™. This is about us remembering and knowing who WE are.
This is a programme of healing for the The Sacred Whore High Priestess™, and the Sacred Whore High Priest™, to take them and particularly, her, from monstrous levels of low self esteem and lack of self knowledge, back to herself and it is a programme for all those who truly want to love her, and indeed, him. This is a programme for the greatest carers on Earth, who are vilified, destroyed, ridiculed, ignored, abused, used, misused and hated for being everything that those who would steal from us are not. This is a programme to turn Cinderellas into The Sacred Whore High Priestesses and for anyone who wants to love her or live by the values of the The Sacred Whore High Priestess Society™. And this is a programme to turn sensitive men into Sacred Whore High Priests™ and for anyone who wants to love him and live by the values of the The Sacred Whore High Priestess™ and High Priest Society. Love, humanity, Spirit and sex. This is a programme to reverse 8000+ years of witch burning, women hating and healer ridicule. This is about the The Sacred Whore High Priestess™ and all those who would love her and live by her values.
This is about the chance for Paradise on Earth. This is a programme for the most beautiful, kind hearted, wounded women and men on this planet. A programme of how to implement a system of how to beat life, how to survive life and how to resurrect from the grief that is a true life. Alchemy and Liberation and Humanity of the lower mind into the higher mind, the soul and the inner heart and therefore one's true, confident, ‘happy’, successful, creative, sexual, sensual, individual, intelligent, emotionally healed, capable of loving and being loved self. How to turn grief into creation and survive and thrive, despite all the shit, all the pain and all the hurt. How to live in a world of madness, hollowness and cruelty and how to be a winner. How to stand up for oneself and to take back the power that has been stolen from anyone with heart, Spirit and sex. The art and science of Alchemy.
This is a programme, based on my scholarly and non scholarly work over 15 years (so far), if not for my whole life, and my extensive and intense, visceral experiences of self transformation from resignation, cynicism and despair to a state of relative bliss, and above all, the right to be. The programme and the courses and my speaking and indeed my forthcoming book, will cover the method of change. The psychological, sociological, spiritual, cultural, political, emotional and physical and even anthropological methods of change. Why we are here. Who the Sacred Whore High Priestess™ is and why she is here. And who the Sacred Whore High Priest™ is. Why we are here. Who we are and what we are and why we are. The beauty and glory of the truth. The meaning of life, no less. This will be on offer in the future.
My first book of consciousness, my first book of the spiritual politics of humanity, of authentic power and of self love and strength. A comprehensive series of online courses, live events and audio and visual material. Books, live events, CDs and DVDs. And one on one personal empowerment consultations. The Amera Ziganii Rao Method of Change™. The right to be and the way to have the right to be. And indeed, how to maintain the will to live without love. How to BE unconditional, self sufficient, self caring, self love. The right to be and the will to be and the unparalleled success that comes with that. The Lost Knowledge™. HOW to live. And how to heal others, the profane and the sick and the soulless. The others. My Business and that of any Sacred Whore High Priestess™ and Sacred Whore High Priest™, is Human Rights, The Right to a Sexual Society, Self Actualisation and Freedom.
My Business is To Overthrow Fascism, in the Home and in the Country. My business is also mastering destiny. Overthrowing the ultimate 'fascism'. Our journey on Earth and The Return To The Source. Our healing, our ascension and our redemption. Fate. The daily crucifixions of a true life, the challenges and the fury of being healers and people of love on a planet like Earth.
Submitting to the journey to liberate and evolve oneself, through following one's heart, however much heartbreak and devastation it leads to on the long long long journey to freedom and then the longer journey to happiness. 'Long Road to Freedom', as Nelson Mandela says. My business is always taking risks, never giving up and making the endless sacrifices it takes to become whole. Enlightenment, Nirvana and then Parinirvana and beyond. My business is pain. My business is bliss.
My business is seeing the truly glory of Spirit on Earth. The Sacred Whore High Priestess Society™ and all that it is. Spirit, humanity, sex and love again at last. And the end of our legacy as either servants or witches or unpaid carers or indeed, ignored mistresses, other women, other men even, and the weirdos that are at the bottom of society. This is our world and it is time to take it back and I can show you how. And that makes my life, truly, worth living.
I want you to feel the way I do. Alive, with the right to be and the belligerence to exist in this profane and male ‘God’ led world of male supremacy, female supremacy, domestic, casual fascism, tribe rules from hell, with beautiful and kind, love intelligence laden, female and male Cinderella warriors at the bottom, caring for everyone else and getting nothing but hatred, ridicule and isolation for it. The meek are already inheriting the Earth and I can show you how.
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I enter the magical hours of pure feeling, pure thought, pure imagination and I think and I write and I 'mysticise' the Universe. I escape at will, the truth of my humanless, Samurai solitude, and I pursue the truth of love in myself and in everyone else. I am philosopher. I am shaman. I am alone. I frontier the Soul to be spirit on Earth.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
To trust your soul is to have courage. The courage to ‘get out of the way’. It takes a commitment to courage, a changing of the very matter of one’s access to courage, one’s relationship with courage and becoming the total renegade of an individual you have to, to become soul. It is that rare. ‘Getting out of the way’ takes a commitment to love and loving and being of love, no matter what. And frankly, that means redefining what love is, EVERY STEP OF THE WAY. Finding out what love really is and getting rid of the bullshit we think it is. Love. Soul. Power. It takes courage to be soul. Courage, courage and courage. The rest is easy. Soul is soul. Finally it is an absolute relief to get out of the way. The life of soul may be hair raising, treacherous and mind numbingly arduous. But it is a life of no regrets. Courage. The key to soul. Just give it a go. Wear that hat, say what’s on your mind, dream your dreams again, dream your dreams at all and just smile through the hate. Including one’s doubt. Courage. ‘Kill’ when you have to, especially yourself, and smile the rest of the time and cry when you need to. Always cry. Earth is a battlefield and crying is the way to win. Soul is a way of life. The natural way. Courage is ‘all’ it takes. We learnt the rules, only so we could break them. The rest is the art of life. Creation. Creating oneself again and again and again. Soul. The only way of life worth anything. Otherwise, we are just waiting to die. We don’t need to. We can live. It’s called soul.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
Self esteem. True, authentic, self knowing, self esteem. The one that includes the sex, the primal, the primitive, the animal, the real. The one that includes humanity and a state of unconditional love. Non needing, non greedy, non controlling, non afraid, non negative and non inhumane and non angry. Self esteem. What ego really is, in its true essence. The physical vehicle of self esteem. The physical vehicle of action, reaction, mastery, ‘misstery’, love and war, tenderness and sexuality. Humanity and human. The beautiful, crafted, styled, educated, aware, sincere, active, visceral, sexual, super sexual, heart led, sensitive, humane, courageous and ethical, hopeful ego. The instinct. The intuition. The magic. The primal. The whole. The whole Soul.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2013
I can feel your sexuality. I love it. My beautiful, filthy, dominating, obsessed, possessed, hedonistic, nihilistic, Sacred beast of a man. Because those of us who are the most sexual, what do we think, in the truth context of the The Sacred Whore High Priestess™, and The Sacred Whore High Priestess (Priest) Society™, that means? We are the most spiritual. The most sexual are in fact the most spiritual. Spirituality being the communing between Mortal and The High Priestess (Priest) to reach ecstasy. Orgasm. Bliss. The most active, dirty minded, passionate, non reproductive, hedonistic, glorious, worthwhile, point of life, meditation or prayer or communing on Earth. THE way to reach God, The Mother, The Universe™. THE way to happiness. Humanity. Joy. Hope. Love. Sex. Sex. Our sex. Sex.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
Love takes courage. Love takes being ready. Love takes love.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
Amera Ziganii Rao is a former hard news journalist who is now turning professional with her art forms and indeed, her healing forms, after a long journey of inner searching, self teaching and exploring many layers and areas of both craft and wisdom. She is now working on her first book of philosophy and esoteric thought, and social, cultural and spiritual commentary. She is also showing her first photography collections. And last but most definitely not least, she is building a business to share her Sacred Whore High Priestess Society consciousness and empowering explorations to reach as many people as possible across the world. She is in her forties and currently lives in London.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
In the meantime, please enjoy this website. I have included many of the subjects I am covering, areas of experience and insight that I will be exploring to the fullest in my book, the courses and all the other work that is to come as a dramatist, novelist and essayist. I also of course, include many of the wise people on this planet, who have come long before me; authors, screen dramatists, playwrights, film makers, artists, and other enlighteners and grand carriers of the wisdom I have found the most helpful on my journey, to find peace and become enlightened. The seemingly impossible journey, in the face of oneself and one’s circumstances. People who have contributed massively to my healing on this mad journey called life, in this insane existence called The Universe. People who have helped to make me as good a carrier of wisdom as I in turn, can be. Thank you.
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Thank you to outside sources for original photography. Darkroomed by Amera Ziganii Rao