Siren XVl (Artwork)
Writings :: Enlightenment Pt l. Amera Ziganii Rao
I have conquered death, reached enlightenment and am free to live and love at last. Again.
And this time I have healed the deepest and most widespread broken heart on the planet of the patriarch, Earth. The broken heart that half the world carries in their hearts. The female heart.
I have conquered death, reached enlightenment and am free. The castration and straight out terror and nihilism that came over me 38 years ago, at the age of eight has gone. Vocation is my other great love, no matter what it costs me.
They were all wrong. It is all wrong. I am free. And this time, it is most probably totally nihilistic. I have lost everyone I have ever loved and I am still alive. And that means everyone. A Divine glass ceiling is not love. That is creation. God is the love of creation, not love as we know it. It is a relentless, brilliant, genius of creation, that is brutal and relentless. And impersonal. Always impersonal.
Emotions are unique to Earth. God's extension of experience, like nowhere else in the Universe. God's love is everything and impersonal. Yes, that is still love, but it's also not love at all. It is constant crucifixion and resurrection. The gnostic way I feel is the most appropriate label there. Enlightenment and growth into one's Soul is forever and it is relentless and has many levels of enlightenment again. Mastering one's destiny is to master one's ego so the ego emotions happily, rather than holds us hostage in its grip of varying degrees of evil and pain. But, even healed, our ego still feels. Our love is not impersonal.
The unique pain and bliss of Earth life. I have lost everyone I have ever loved and I am still alive. Nihilism may also be the label I like the most. In that, I can be suitably fascinated and remember the beauty of the saying, 'we are not physical beings having a spiritual experience, we are spiritual beings, having a physical experience.'
It's all futile, part of our soldier work here and to create justice. Justice, depth, the return to Soul and the knowledge of who we are, complete. Lemuria. Atlantis. The time of intelligence. Before the Patriarchal Tribe world took over and wreaked its carnage. Pure carnage. Evil.
And we are almost free. All of us.
So I have conquered death, reached enlightenment and am free to live and love at last. Again. And to know that the previous enlightenments of - Joseph Campbell defined - heroic stature were just the appetizer. I intend only one thing now, with my new lower standards. Never, ever to feel the depth of that pain again. To come here and find out why you are hated, before you even do anything to make anyone hate you, because you are actually a womb and not a human being. The literal and the symbolic use of that image. Devastating. All words say nothing. I have to forget that pain.
We are almost free. All of us. The years of ascension approach.
Amera Ziganii Rao © 2011
Digital Darkroom Art by Amera Ziganii Rao
Thank you to outside source for original photography