The purpose of my life is to be free. Mentally, emotionally, psychologically, sentimentally and psychically. And freedom on Earth. Terrestrial freedom, Terrestrial Paradise. To live a life in pursuit of freedom is a Soul life. A life of Soul. And mastery is the skill. Mastery of the most passionate, driven and tenacious ego, in order to ‘vehicle’ such enormous spiritual ambition. To be free is to be the most spiritually ambitious of all. Siddharta. The wise of every kind. Wisdom is freedom. Wisdom is the visceral path of torture and excitement to freedom. To God on Earth. To Love. Of every kind. Freedom. They celebrate each breath and know it’s free. Freedom is the price and freedom is the boon. The pain to go with the constant evolution and shedding of ego that it requires. The beatings, the pain and then the peace. Serenity, acceptance and resolution. Mastery is simply and completely, to parent the ego and soothe it’s terrible pain. That apparently is the purpose of life. To master ego, to soothe ego and then let that part of it die in your arms once again, so that life can go on inside of you. And then the sense of adventure returns. Serenity and adventure and the knowledge of so much love and unity already achieved. The smashing of the heart before the Ascent.
I did not try to own him. That was his department. That was his pain. But I did try to own it. And this was the last thing I ever owned. Everything else I had given up. But I did try to own IT. A subtle but important similarity. Enlightenment, it appears, much to my devastation and even resigned amusement now, has layers of tests. The 'wry-ness' of Buddha’s smile. The final acceptance of what God’s love is and what God’s life is. The first miracle of survival and acceptance of God's love and Universe is just step one. Then it gets much worse before it gets better. The convergence and fulfilment of one's dream is therefore Nirvana. A subtle but important difference.
Enlightenment is the highest mind.
'Can't make it to the Quest? We've got a gift for you!'. Sent to me today in the mail. Fuck Enlightenment. Done that, got smashed into a thousand smithereens. What's next? Which way is Nirvana? Straight ahead.
Nirvana is the next road. Nirvana is the next journey begun. The goal. I like goals. Enlightenment? Been there, done that, bought the T shirt, not impressed. Great skills, powerful understandings, huge self worth, the mysteries of the Universe unlocked. But the pain I can forget. I will think about what enlightenment gave me. And I will see how it was worth it. But for now, I am not looking back. Now it is all about Nirvana. I like goals.
Amera Ziganii Rao ©
I did not try to own him. That was his department. That was his pain. But I did try to own it. And this was the last thing I ever owned. Everything else I had given up. But I did try to own IT. A subtle but important similarity. Enlightenment, it appears, much to my devastation and even resigned amusement now, has layers of tests. The 'wry-ness' of Buddha’s smile. The final acceptance of what God’s love is and what God’s life is. The first miracle of survival and acceptance of God's love and Universe is just step one. Then it gets much worse before it gets better. The convergence and fulfilment of one's dream is therefore Nirvana. A subtle but important difference.
Enlightenment is the highest mind.
'Can't make it to the Quest? We've got a gift for you!'. Sent to me today in the mail. Fuck Enlightenment. Done that, got smashed into a thousand smithereens. What's next? Which way is Nirvana? Straight ahead.
Nirvana is the next road. Nirvana is the next journey begun. The goal. I like goals. Enlightenment? Been there, done that, bought the T shirt, not impressed. Great skills, powerful understandings, huge self worth, the mysteries of the Universe unlocked. But the pain I can forget. I will think about what enlightenment gave me. And I will see how it was worth it. But for now, I am not looking back. Now it is all about Nirvana. I like goals.
Amera Ziganii Rao ©
Fidel's Girl lll. A Self Portrait. Amera Ziganii Rao