Love Returned Whether I Like It Or Not. Amera Ziganii Rao
And then there is the other even more horrendous possibility. That it is the same man but loving him in a different way. The life of love Samurai. Fucking awful. What all the shit has been about. Healing together from the Patriarchal Toilet Tribe from Hell. Both of us healing. Both having been sick from the past. Partnership being fated, whether one wants it or not in the end. I guess the love and the like come later. Because the LOVE cannot be denied. Or is the unique LOVE SOUL DESIRE of the twin soul partnership. Unfortunately yes. Unfortunately. That awful, fear inducing saying, 'we cannot choose who we love'. We can't, but we are most certainly required to choose HOW we love. That is the healing. The healing from hell.
Abuse of power only exists because the system is set up to make the rest of us feel incapable. In the home and in the world. Secondly, we are afraid of losing love. One day, that does not become a problem anymore. Samurai knows he/she is not loved anymore and in that he/she is free. Free to start all over again. Alone. With the same man.
There is no such thing as a father figure. I learnt that a long time ago. But this has taken me onto a new journey. There is actually no such thing as a man figure either. Samurai is here for universal friendships, universal family and universal relationship. And that means being alone with the 'Chi'. There is no such thing as a man figure. Love has to be completely redefined. With the same man.
My old man. In the same way as the bitter disappointment comes that Divinity is a nebulous energy of 'Chi', so is the love of a man in the end. The one you love. The one you desire. Healing and commitment therefore is defying him and taking back power and yet staying, just as I am demanding he shares power and stays too. Making my career as big as possible. Loving my vocation loudly and shouting about it all day. Pissing him off forever. Okay.
Never wanted this, but I am certain that he didn't either. Apparently, anything else is idealism. Hatred between a man and a woman should be present in this way, I have been told. Mastery of it makes the sex better, I have been told. Sure. Whatever. As long as evolution and growth are occuring, in this nightmare of a life, we are both winning. Who cares if we hate each other. As long as it is not toxic, ie, stationary, there is hope. And I know I am not capable of stationary and neither is he, even as the limp Shiva archetype. The twin soul partnership from hell. The Return to Eden indeed. Whoopee.
This is the difference between a marriage of non sex and one of sex. Non passion or passion. The primal partnership. Mastery. True love indeed. True, sexual love. Sex with humanity. Sex with love. But at least, sex.
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Amera Ziganii Rao. A Profile
WRITER. ESOTERIC. PHILOSOPHER. ENLIGHTENER. INSPIRER. PHOTOGRAPHER. ARTIST
Amera Ziganii Rao is a philosophical writer, essayist, social commentator, prose writer, dramatist and photographer as well as a consciousness explorer, self actualiser and emotional healer. She is a former hard news journalist who is now turning professional with her art forms and indeed, her healing forms, after a long journey of inner searching, self teaching and exploring many layers and areas of both craft and wisdom. She is now working on her first book of philosophy and esoteric thought, and social and cultural commentary. She is also showing her first photography collections. And last but most definitely not least, she is building a business to share her consciousness and empowering explorations to reach as many people as possible across the world. She is 46 years old and currently lives in London.
AMERA ZIGANII RAO SCHOOL OF LEARNING
Writer and Enlightener, Amera Ziganii Rao, is now putting together a comprehensive and unique programme of Education For Liberation. Liberation of the lower mind into the higher mind, the soul and the inner heart and therefore one's true, confident, happy, successful, creative, sexual, sensual, individual, intelligent, emotionally healed, capable of loving and being loved self. Based on her scholarly and non scholarly work over 14 years, if not for her whole life, and her extensive and intense, visceral experiences of self transformation from resignation, cynicism and despair to a state of bliss, the courses will cover the method of change. The psychological, sociological, spiritual, cultural, political, emotional and physical and even anthropological methods of change. Why we are here. The meaning of life, no less. This will be on offer in the near future, in the form of online courses and live events, to begin with. Thank you
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In the meantime, please enjoy this website. I have included many of the subjects I am covering, areas of experience and insight that I will be exploring to the fullest in my book, the courses and all the other work that is to come as a dramatist, novelist and essayist. I also of course, include many of the wise people on this planet, who have come long before me; authors, screen dramatists, playwrights, film makers, artists, and other enlighteners and grand carriers of the wisdom I have found the most helpful on my journey, to find peace and become enlightened. The seemingly impossible journey, in the face of oneself and one’s circumstances. People who have contributed massively to my healing on this mad journey called life. People who have helped to make me as good a carrier of wisdom as I in turn, can be. Thank you.
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Esoteric. Self Actualiser. Consciousness Explorer. Philosophical Writer. Essayist. Dramatist. Prose Writer. Photographer. Film & TV Creative. Entrepreneur. Ex-Journalist.
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