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Unrequited Love. The Normal Way. Amera Ziganii Rao
I have to release relationship and accept that true love does not exist. Good Shephards are slaves, seduced at the drop of a hat by the appearance of acceptance in a world of greed, shallowness, selfishness and heartlessness. The world of the machines. The world of external power. The world without soul. The other tribe. The man I love. The men I have loved. The other tribe. Slaves who want to remain slaves. Who serve the heart of darkness.
Good Shepards are slaves who sell their souls into service to the machines. Slaves who BECOME the other tribe. The sexless, soulless tribe, all to keep a job and to get the regular invite to Sunday lunch with the family. Conformists, conventionalists, the human beings who allowed Hitler to build concentration camps and then denied that 10 million people were being systematically gassed to death. All to 'keep the peace'. Colluders, cowards and shallow bastards from hell.
Good Shephards are slaves and they think they are free. The dream is over. My dream for life. Nihilism is the only way now. God's purpose for Earth stinks. There is no Return to Eden and there is no such thing as true love.
Good Shephards have made sure of that. The High Priestess Violators, the Machines, the Agents, the Vampires of the so called normal world still rule in unquestionable seduction of power. They still have them in their grip and until a slave knows he is not a slave, there is nothing one can do. Evil has won in my world. I could not free the slave. Nihilism is now the only way.
There is no such thing as true love. It no longer exists.
Amera Ziganii Rao ©
The Beloved Son. Amera Ziganii Rao
http://ameraziganiirao.blogspot.com/2011/07/beloved-son-amera-ziganii-rao.html
Individuation. Film Plots. Becoming Soul and Passion as Compassion. Amera Ziganii Rao
http://ameraziganiirao.blogspot.com/2011/05/film-plots-individuation-becoming-soul.html
The Bloodshed of Ascension. Human Rights. Love. Amera Ziganii Rao
http://ameraziganiirao.blogspot.com/2011/07/bloodshed-of-ascension-human-rights.html
Nihilism.
http://ameraziganiirao.blogspot.com/2011/04/official-definitions-of-spirituality.html
Nihilism. The New Way. Amera Ziganii Rao
Nihilism, existentialism and recognition now that nothing will ever happen unless and until it is written. Fatalism, nihilism, existentialism. We live in a shit hole and it's called Earth. The rest is just doing the time. And it's called life. Don't talk to me of love, don't talk to me of non attachment and don't talk to me about patience. Nihilism is the way and finally making it work. My way.
Amera Ziganii Rao ©
You cannot choose your destiny and you cannot change it. Merlin.
We live in a shit hole and it's called Earth. Amera Ziganii Rao ©
Being and Nothingness. Jean Paul Sartre.
Everything is written. All alchemy is, is re-programming every single part of one's self to adapt to the shit hole called Earth. No fucking mystery there then.
Amera Ziganii Rao ©
I am now a complete nihilist, existentialist and someone who does not believe true love is possible. I can't stand God, I know now that nothing happens unless it is written, I have no respect for the Universe's system and I release all guilt that there is anything wrong in how I feel. I have had a disgusting life and a disgusting journey and all for nothing. Other than my personal treasure as Paulo Coelho says in The Alchemist, of my massively found self esteem and liberation from everyone who has ever bullied me or tried to own me or tried to destroy me. I have my self, after 14 years of torture, self study, the hardest work I have ever heard of and isolation, self reliance and physical pain. I am apparently an Alchemist and Soul. In other words, I have become superego instead of the wounded, dark ego and I work in partnership with my higher self, ie Soul. And Soul is the part of us, the much bigger part of us, that is the part of the Universe that we are part of. And for that I am truly greatful and truly proud of myself too.
But to know that that immense journey of horrors for 14 straight years of chronic pain, inside and out, has now led to a place where I am being asked to 'let go' for now, is monstrous. Simply monstrous and I have nothing other to speak of, than the truth. Earth is a shit hole and so is the Universe. A cruel, relentless, machine of creation. I know exactly what I have to do now and am fine. But any shit about non attachment or any of the other spiritual appeasements and I swear, I will either kill or burn this whole stupid planet to non existence. And within that I am free and have compassion for my man. He is a slave and one day he will know it. And then he will come and find me. And that is all that remains of my only dream in life.
True love does not exist. Maybe one day it will.
Maybe.
Amera Ziganii Rao ©
One goal of the spiritual journey is to escape the prison of karma, which is our conditioned, automatic reactions to people, circumstances, and events, and bring about the true response of our soul, which is creativity. The more creative and unpredictable our response to the world, the more we are aligned with the creator of the universe - and the more free we will be.
Deepak Chopra