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Surrender. Amera Ziganii Rao
And then the point comes, after the abuse of power has been analysed to its fullest levels, the anthropology of human sickness uncovered and the negatives of negotiation cleared at last.
After that comes surrender. Both as a woman of the Venus archetype, outside the bedroom with the same ability as in the bedroom, and as an artist of the Venus archetype. The originality of the artist and the sage and the philosopher and the mystic, working with the patrons, the funders, the producers, the employers and the editors. The same dynamic as being with a man in the most primal of partnerships. The dynamic of give and take, trust and surrender and giving through trusting and opening oneself up to additional help and influence and advice.
Selling one's product in the Mars led world. Selling love to Earth. In whatever form. Whether it is as a woman and girlfriend and wife or whether it is as a human being with an original product to sell. And indeed as an artist with an original voice. The same dynamic.
And not easy to do. The ability to retain one's individuality and integrity and sense of self and indeed, sense of duty to one's higher self, the Soul, the love of the Universe, given for safekeeping into one's own hands, after years of emotional and spiritual mastery. And the immense sacrifice that came with that journey. That can never be forgotten and that product has to be guarded with one's life. The gatekeeper of love, the gatekeeper of wisdom. How to negotiate with Earth so that is not lost and so that it is valued and so that one does not feel like a whore in every transaction, whether in the home or in the workplace.
Coming out of one's necessary years of 'ivory tower'. Where one has found oneself and belligerently deflected all prosaic, sincere but unhelpful pseudo wisdom, abuse of power under the guise of help. The bad producers, the bad boyfriends, the bad parents, the bad siblings, the useless, sad though it is to say, companions of life who have not contributed to one's own growth whatsoever. The sincerity to love is not nearly enough. The ability to love is the rarest thing on earth and has to be manufactured in every moment. And the doors had to be closed on all of them, while I found myself. But now I crave for those doors to open and feel I am ready to attract the right kind of human beings to work with, live with and be with.
So, after the abuse of power has been dealt with and the acceptance of one's own resentment that I had to even create positive boundaries for people in the first place, after I had to accept that putting myself 'out there' in relationship, down to business was my job too and that I could not rely on the good nature of anyone around me. I had to create everything. After that resentment has been dealt with, after those skills have been aquired, then I look to a new life of hope and maybe even joy.
And at last, material abundance. As Anais Nin says, there are two kinds of freedom, inner and outer. I have more than gained inner freedom. I am one of the embodiments of it in the world today. I see that in every moment.
And now the next stage is outer freedom. Material freedom, financial freedom and the freedom to work with and live with other human beings, in the home and in the workplace. A whole new journey in itself and one I can only commit to today with love, recognition of the fact that we are all trying and the new acceptance that the right teams are manifesting themselves as I speak.
So at last I can be a valued woman, human being and artist and sage and anything else I am and no longer a whore. The ultimate freedom on Earth. My human rights that I have worked so hard and consciously for. Wisdom, people and material freedom and comfort. Sharing the glory, the spoils and the love.
My journey is not only about reversing the infant, it is a calculated, intelligent knowledge of when the time is right to re - join the world. Again, psychology is only a part of the make up of a human being. We should never underestimate the wisdom that leads us and that reveals itself only at the right time.
Amera Ziganii Rao ©
I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated.
Anais Nin
The mastery of negotiation with the other. Man, patron, funder or boss. The same dynamic.
Amera Ziganii Rao ©
Other Link.
Erotica. Sacred Sexuality. Love. Amera Ziganii Rao
http://ameraziganiirao.blogspot.com/p/erotica-sacred-sexuality-love.html
No Name (Artwork). Darkroomed by Amera Ziganii Rao
Thank you to outside source for original artwork.
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